i am confused.. time and again.. i am always forced to go against my decision.. that is too much.. i cant take it anymore.. my only wish is to help tkd 4eva.. but... they wanted me to perform.. i dun care. i dun wan.. i asked them politely.. they dun let.. so.. wat can i do.. NOTHING.. i just cried out.. i dun wan this lfe.... somehow somewat.. i dunnno wat happen.. they allowed me. i dunno wat happen.. all the time i was downstairs and i sneakedaway from clara to have some peace.. wateva happened.. thank you to anyone who helped me... thank you all alot.... at home.. i oso cant take it snymore.. wat the hell.. u are my brother rite? my eldest brother... but.. why are u treating me as if i am ur enemy... i won a gold medal back.. not only did u not congratulate me... u insulted me... why... u said that i won because there were only8 participants and that the competition was so easy. why dun u try instead?? i doubt u can even kick up to 70 kicks.. u keep saying i am fat.. wat proof u have? my weight is acceptable... unlike urs which is SEVERELY OVERWEIGHT.. compare my weight and urs... wat can u say.. if i am fat? wat are u?? ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra ultra FAT??? u are not fit to be my brother.. insulting me liddat.. scolding me liddat.. beating me up when i dun think i am even in the wrong.. u ask us NOT to scold vulgarities... so by rite u are suppose to be second bro and my role model.. BUT.. u are the one always scolding vulgarities.. always creating trouble.. always arguing with mummy.. wat are we?? we are ur family.. and yet... u did this to us... wat is ur attitude? wat is ur perception to the word FAMILY?? wat is it...
i can take it no more.. i wan to scream and shout out loud.. i wanna cry out loud.. i want to.. but i will have to refrain myself... if not... when i start to scream.. shout... cry out loud.. u might not be able to see me anymore... and i dun care how u all feel..
