Wednesday, September 28, 2011
hello hello hello. this week so far has been no no no no goood.
monday~ cm1111 test and ma1421 test. siaooo. at the end of the day was tired ttm. reached home alr 1045pm? then still had to go home prepare for lab the next day. watch the lab vids, load super slowly. 15 min later, havent even load for one sec. super irritated. then did datasheet, look through procedures. it was very chilly at night and somehow i got 'chilled'. flu. slept for only 4hrs. and on top of that, sunday night was pretty bad too. couldnt fall asleep. think only had 3 hrs of sleep?
tuesday~ woke up feeling super groggy and flu was not gone. grabbed muffin, bread, and drank a glass of hot choco malt drink. on the way to school, i was sleeping while standing. lol. really really tired. reached buona vista stn, saw bus stop was packed with so many humans, took a cab to sch instead. lab session = 5hrs of no sitting. stood throughout. apparently, my chair always get missing. while the 3 guys next to me all have chairs. =( was sneezing throughout the expt. worse of all, i was synthesizing powdered compounds. o.o well good thing is that i've finished the expt and may not have to go lab next tues. =) bad thing is i have to draft out my lab report soon to cfm. lol. then after lab, was lecture, after lecture went to eat mof with carlene. hehe yum. and had koi, then go home~
wed~ 12am phone received sms-es, fb received many wall posts. yeah. its my birthday. but it doesnt feel like a birthday! =( it hasnt dawn on me that its alr the end of sept. 2 months have passed since school started. its as though shool just started not long ago. i seriously have not gotten used to uni life yet. though its better, its still very tiring. and of course, i've spammed so much caffeine into my body, i think its affecting my health. =( many many sleepless nights. =/ woke up at 630am still having flu.. =( after school, i went to j8 to shop around. bought myself a watch for $9.90. cfm will spoil easily one. haha. but i dont care~ feel ike getting myself something. i always buy myself something on my birthday.. wahaha. nd the nice thing about the watch shop was they dont give u plastic bag. they give u 'wrapping paper bag' so now my watch looks like a present! =) went home, watched anime, replied fb wall posts. and sleep. very sleepy. supposed to sleep from 440 to 6pm but i woke up at 8pm instead. haha. and i woke up cos mum was 'shouting' me to go eat dinner. birthday noodles. lol. i'm supposed to study! oh mann. i'm gg-ed. and now, i still feel like sleeping and not study at all.
my 19th birthday so far, well left 3hrs only, isnt like a birthday at all. apart from the sms-es and wishes from some friends and family, there's nothing. no celebration, no going out with friends, no nothing. and yes, i went to shop at j8 alone this afternoon. and now i'm sitting here blowing my nose. no, i'm not crying. its just my flu which is still so horrible. =( i've never disliked a day so much before. the best part, which is actually the worse, i have not started studying. looks like i'm done for.
well then, fri's coming alr. so after the cm1131 paper, i'm just gonna take a break, sleep my sat in, do some lab report stuff, and just relax. next week's e learning. it will be better. no long trips to school. (Y)
8:29 PM ; smile?
Friday, September 23, 2011
studying so far has been a major failure. =(
7:13 PM ; smile?
Thursday, September 22, 2011
one genes and society down, one lab report down, one teaching award essay down.
two genes and society to go, 3 tutorials to go, one webcast to watch, 3 modules to study, one application form to fill up, one expt to study.
all to be done by sunday! @.@
1:22 AM ; smile?
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
i'm in no mood to do work/study. sigh. rainy rainy day. carlene's supposed to come for a swim.. but its still raining. wonder if the rain stops soon. =/
work to be done this recess week:
1) all the tutorials
2) all 3 genes and society assignments
3) teaching award essay and application form
4) expt 2 lab report
5) study for math, physical and inorg chem
6) 'study' through the new expt
i guess thats about all. sounds little? but its actually ALOT. =(
1:27 PM ; smile?
Sunday, September 18, 2011
i keep getting free cab rides this year. lol. feel bad about it lehh. =/ should treat the cab payers some stuff right? but guys ah. =.= dont know what to say liao. lol.
just returned home from timbre at clarke quay.. beer, pizza, mushrooms(lol) and other alcoholic drinks. got a little fuzzy, then 'woke up' and then now, i have a headache. rarr. =// my alcohol tolerance not that good.. but i like to drink. lol. bad girl. shooot..
homework is seriously fail man. intended to finished up to my tutorials.. but i got stucked at and am still stuck at my gem assignment. i'm taking too long to do it! ahhhhhhh! tmr chiong? i got to start on lab report toooooo! oh nooooo!!! tmr must must must chiong.. but, i'm lazy. =( wahaha. alright. head's getting painer. gotta sleep it off. i wonder is it hangover? but its too light to be like hangover. i dont know. haha!
ciaos~ nights~
1:12 AM ; smile?
Saturday, September 17, 2011
my anime is taking a loooong time to load, so i'll post.
well another week has passed. and sadly, i havent caught up with school work. lets see.. inorganic chem is alright so far.. just need to start memorising.. applied math is also okay, just that i got to practice more to familiarise with the different types of questions.. genes and society is boring, cos i pretty much learnt most of it in jc.. just that i got to finish all my 3 assignments.. lastly, and the most horrible one, physical chem is not alright at all. i've lagged behind since the start of the term and i'm still lagging. =/ i'm horrible. so this recess week, i got to really mug. which equals to escaping from home and finding a place to study with my textbooks and away from my lappy. laptop is super distracting. as most ppl can see, i'm very active on fb. and that's because, i'm using fb to escape doing homework. nothing to see also stare and screen. nothing to do just go play sims social. rarr. i got to control myself! =(
alright. tonight i'll just chill with my breezer and anime and lappy, tmr i shall finish at least one of my genes and soc assignment as well as to write my teaching application award essay, then revise on tutorials, then head out to city hall to chill with jc mates at timbre. so i'll have to try to not slack off work tmr since these 3 things i'm doing tmr involves the use of this laptop. haha. hope i can do it. must psycho myself: i can do it, i can do it, i can do it! (i keep accidentally typing cant instead of can =.=) yeap, so thats that and i'm gonna finish up my drink and anime and zzz. tmr wake up and cook campbell soup with garlic toast. yummy =)
ciaos~
move on, move on. keep moving on. forget, forget. just forget the unpleasant and live on as myself.
12:01 AM ; smile?
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
a post before i go do homework!
actually... i forgot what i wanted to post. lol. so whatever comes to my mind, i shall type. hmm. monday ponned lecture and went to shop with luomin.. bought a new hoodie and a toothbrush! lol. adding on to my jackets collection.. now, i have 5 hoodies, one windbreaker and one normal jacket. the normal one and wind breaker very old alr so i dont intend to wear them liao. my hoodies, one quite new, but very thin. only wear it when i wear tank top out. cos i'll never wear tank top out without outerwear. lol. then one more hoodie is my cousin dont want then give me one. dont think i will wear it cos its so starry.. kinda AA. =.= then another hoodie is old also.. adidas one, quite nice but quite small. so i dont really like wearing it. then one more hoodie is a gigantic red hoodie from NYCO one. haha. worn only when i go super cold places like movies.. yeah, so thats all for my hoodies. haha. i like hoodies cos can pull the thing over my head, but i realised after buying them, i never ever pull them over my head. hahaha. lame right.
nokia x3-02 sucks! not fun one, then the touch screen very very lousy. i press one tab, it will either keep scrolling the screen up and down, if not, it will open the tab above it. so stupid lo. then if accidentally press somewhere out of the sms screen, the whole msg will just disappear and not save a draft at all! lucky, i dont sms much. but then, kinda irritating when i wanna sms. so in the end i will give up sms-ing. rarr. i want to buy another phone! but i cant =.= sigh sigh. why did i have to drop my nokia n8 in the toilet bowl. although it keeps restarting, the touch function is so much better and there's more functions. =(
next week is recess week! muahaha. time to relax? NAH. study. okay la can relax abit. let's see. from friday evening, there's a pizza session to appreciate the FOC seniors, think i'll just sit there and stone. wahaha. i dont really feel like eating pizza... then, monday there's CSS outing at just acia.. then, tuesday there's elenoids outing at town area? but then, i dont feel like going... lazy ah. plus keep going out and eat... dont like ah..weekends, currently free, unless there's a flea market going on, maybe carlene will bring me there. then.. monday morning have to go school! =( for some safety talk. sigh. then go shopping! =D ought to buy more stuff for myself. esp clothes, so that i can replace all the super old ones.. okay.. then from wed onwards, MUG. do work and do work. most probably slack too. and most probably slack more than i do work? but still, gotta mug as much as possible because, MID TERMS ARE COMING! after the recess week itself. monday alone got 2 papers. CM1111 during lecture slot. then MA1421 AT 8PM-10PM O.O for god's sake, is the lecturer trying to test how well we can still function our brain after one full day in school?? seriously. =.= then the next day have LAB. so after mentally draining ourselves out, the next day we need to do physical plus mentally draining work. the expt will be about synthesizing a compound, then purify, then test for purity, something like that.. omg.. cfm the full 5hrs will be used up, then clean up, come out from lab, time for next lecture! wo de tian ah! =/ then after that, wed, thurs no papers, then friday got CM1131, which hopefully by then i understand everything liao. currently my knowledge of CM1131 is nothing at all. i only know pV=nRT.. yes, i only know this much. i forgot everything else liao, and mostly i dont understand because, most of the time i will just faint in lecture. haha. yes, i'm the sleepy queen. forever like that one. haha. and the sad thing is that wednesday is gonna be a super boring day. like today. and i dont like it. =( cos it means study and study. if not just stone and do nothing. i feel so no life. =( whatever i guess. unless anyone free next next wed? wanna go out chill or anything jio me. lol.
well then, i guess i have to finish up my tutorials already. i feel sleeeeeepy! think if i lie down on my bed which is just right next to me, hug my bolster, hide under my blanket, close my eyes, i'll just zzzzzzz.. or maybe just rest my head on my table. oh ya.. which reminds me of ytd's 1131 lecture. i was so tired, especially when i didnt have coffee, i just cui-ed. could hear the lecturer talking, but the words made no sense to me. so i was half asleep, thinking about stuffs which were like 'dreams' to me. then suddenly, i blanked out. everything was in darkness for that split moment. and i dont know why, my immediate respond was to jerk awake. so i suddenly just jerked but my body was too tired to sit up. i must have looked weird. lol. i think hui en was shocked. haha. cos i suddenly just jerked.. then when i sat up, i was super gong dai already. funny right. it felt as though if i didnt jerk awake, i wouldnt be able to wake up anymore.. lol. like i'll just KO on the spot. hahaha.
okay, enough blabbering. i'm supposed to study. (but my eyelids seem to be extremely heavy now....) GOOD NIGHT! hahahaha!
2:58 PM ; smile?
Sunday, September 11, 2011
whats going on inside my mind now
'study!'
"no i dont want to!"
'STUDY!!!'
"NO"
'STUDY!!'
"nooooooooooooooooooo!!!"
'well, then i cant force u..'
"(Y)"
'but still, u have to study.... nag nag nag nag nag'
"fine fine fine! i shall study!"
=.= i sound as though i'm turning maaaaaaaad.
10:01 PM ; smile?
after so many things, i realised ending was the right thing to do. i was stupid. i was blind. i realised so many things that i didnt know. the feelings are gone. now the main thing is to forget everything. every single thing. i hope i can.
2:01 PM ; smile?
Friday, September 09, 2011
i'm lazy. lazy lazy. anyhow do work, anyhow fall asleep in lecture, anyhow fall down. -.-
whut.
okay, my blog used to only have 1 reader. then, suddenly, i realised 2 other person will read it when they are too too bored. then, one legend popped out whom i dont know who he is. then now, 2 uni friends read it. wahaha. looks like whatever i post here must careful liao eh.. lol. unless i purposely wanna post stuff. hmm..
i gotta study! mid terms are like in 2 weeks. 2 weeks! mehhh. monday 2 papers, fri one paper. and my birthday is smack right in the middle. right in the middle!! =( super mehhhh. looks like no enjoyment for me. D= well, TOO BAD FOR ME. anyway, my birthdays are always SMACK right in the middle or on the first day of the exams. gotten used to it already. lol.
next, what happened to my diet plan?!?!?!?!?! MAJOR FAIL. think i become fatter already. LOL. RARR. sigh. someone please ban me from chocolates, chips, nuts, biscuits, etc etc etc. PLEASE? why do i have such a sweet tooth and i itchy mouth? especially when i do work, the mouth ah, aways wanna bite something. grrrr. looks like i have to stop visiting fairprice so often, and even if i do go fairprice, i MUST avoid the snacks section. =( next well be sleeping early and waking up (not so) early. according to news and other sources, sleep deprived people tend to grow fat (like me!) -.- so my plans are to sleep before 12am everyday! if possible of course. gotta rule out the days when i gotta rush lab report/ meeting minutes/ tutorials/assignments. other than that, SLEEP. then, stop drinking so much tea and coffee, drink more water. tea and coffee got milk and sugar, so will contribute not alot, but still some fats. =/ and next, proper meals! i realised how much i'm not used to eating proper lunch. usually i eat at 7plus or 8plus, then 1plus to 2 eat bread, then 5 plus eat bread again. then dinner at around 8. today, ate breakfast 8plus, lunch 1plus, by 6plus, i became hungry. ate lunch too early? maybe. oh ya. last time my lunch timing was always 3pm or later. no wonder. i need to adjust my body back!!
so, my resolution: eat healthily, sleep healthily, and try to study healthily. no more burning of midnight oils, unless is exams period. that cant be avoided since i'm always the last minute chiongster. well then, having making this kind of resolution so many times, i wonder if i'll still be able to stick to it successfully.. i highly highly (do not) think i can. WAHAHA.
well then, finish up anime then time for BED. tmr study, shopping, study. =)
11:36 PM ; smile?
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
reached home, collapsed for 4hrs plus. did nothing at all. sigh.
9:06 PM ; smile?
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
life isn't a drama. dramas are fake. there's no such thing as a real happy ending. so, dont try to mimic dramas. its just stupid.
sinus and allergy has been going on and off on and off for dont know how many times this year alr. alot more for aug and now, the beginning of sept. sunday night started with swollen eyes, runny nose, monday swollen eyes, runny nose, sneezy, plus throat irritation. and today, runny nose, sneezy, fatigue.
the bad thing was last night i went to bed at 11plus.. but i couldnt sleep cos my nose was so blocked that i cant breathe properly. the last time i checked my phone was 2.09am. thats damn early. then i was supposed to wake up at 6am, but even though i set 3 alarms to ring at 6, 615 and 630, i woke up only at 650. washed up, changed, grab a bread, went off to sch. reached sch at 840, went to css room, went to set up sci day stuff, went for lab. lab. i dropped a conical flask from head level. lucky no one got hurt. shocked. big thank you to the guy who helped me take the broom and my TA who helped me sweep up the mess. and he said that i gotta treat him lunch for service charge. haha. then ending my expt, i placed my paper in my fumehood while i did something. this weird TA from dont know where. came and say 'where is this supposed to be?' at my paper. .... dont know whats wrong with him. suddenly come like i offended him like that. whatever. then finish my expt, cleaned up, return apparatus, let TA sign my datasheet, got weird readings. sian. might have to redo. and then when out of lab, mehh outside the lab while waiting for charmaine and raymond to come out. super tired. when they came out, hui en came, went to canteen, grab a bread and drink, went to LT, eat and lecture. =.= halfway during lecture, head felt heavy, strong attraction to table, and i blanked out. i could still hear things though. like lecturer was talking and talking, carlene waas explaining things to jia jia and suddenly i heard hui en 'scream' also. hahaha. her cup fell off the table. but i just couldnt get up. lecture end, went out, waited for them to eat finish then went home.
a day ended just like that. i'm so tired. physically, mentally, whatever-ly. i think it wont be long before i master the art of sleeping while standing in the mrt. hahaha. hopefully, i can sleep tnight. going to bed early again. if i start sneezing, coughing, rubbing my eyes again, thats it, tmr i will still be mehh throughout. i feel zombified.
and, i'm tired of who people think i am. i'm tired of telling them i am not who they think i am, but they will still insist that i am who they think i am. hey, i am who i am. i am what i am. i am myself. not who you think i am. and u think u know me better than i know myself? stop trying to fit me into this other person who i dont know. i am ng li min rebecca. i'm not anyone else.
9:33 PM ; smile?
Monday, September 05, 2011
a funny thing that happened in the afternoon: i was sitting on the sofa, watching tv, taking a break from studying. mum asks: 'tmr what time need to wake up for sch?'
in my mind: 'huh school? what school? got school meh?'
haha! i'm totally still haven't got used to the fact that i'm already studying in uni! OMG. i gotta wake up wake up! school has already started for more than a month. mid terms are in 3 weeks. 3 freakishly short weeks. oh my tian. i'm lagging behind.. lagging. laagggggiiiiiinnnnggggggg. okay, u get my point. so. yeah. it sucks.
and, tuesday would be such a fabulous day! 8-10am sci day duty. 10-3pm lab. 3-4pm recover from lab. 4-6pm lecture. by the end, i'll be a dead person. good thing's that wed is a short day.
well then, pack up and zzz. if not i wont survive in lectures and lag even more. just like the lagging strand in dna replication. what the shit. i'm turning nuts.
12:33 AM ; smile?
Saturday, September 03, 2011
is there anything i can do to make it all stop? what's the point of telling me all those stuff? to make me turn back? no, i wont. everything's different already.
a nice way to chill: beer, chips, good anime.
11:55 PM ; smile?
Friday, September 02, 2011
leave me alone! leave me alone! leave me alone! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i'm turning insane because of you.
11:38 PM ; smile?
