went to watch movie just now with jc mates! watched footloose. it wasnt bad.. quite nice. just mature content. LOL. hahaha. and i met my 2nd bro at plaza sing! went to the cinema level, he was there. after movie, we came out, met him again. lol. so qiao. and i was thinking on my way to plaza sing, bro went out to dont know where, what if he's at plaza sing too? lol. and tada! he was really there. funny funny. my friend overheard his friend say: isnt that ur sis again? she's stalking you! lol! i'm definitely not stalking my bro. i'm not a pervo! lol.
i shall be a good girl and study later. later which means, after i watch finish my anime, eat finish my dinner, watch cm1191 vids, and print out the slides and bathe. which would be around 10pm.. and then.. haha. means i'll sleep late. but no worries! i had my coffeeeeeeee! expensive coffee bean double choc frappe with coffee in it. whoaaaa~ shiok =) but expensive...
i must cut down on my spending! cos i need to save up for after exams SHOPPING AND EATING! =D haha. which means i have to start dieting.. =( well, i successfully managed to not buy any chocolates from ntuc just now.. gotta control my itchy mouth. wahaha. yeap.
let me try something for the month of november. NO chocolates, NO bubble tea, NO biscuits, and... NO fatty food? try to luh. haha. at least i'm not gonna visit koi, gong cha, mof, ntuc snacks section.. but still gotta leave one time to drink up my starbucks free coffee first. other than that, no more unhealthy stuff! i gotta hold back on my spendings and diet ah. if not i become, no money plus fat fat. lol! sad. control! after exams then indulge in gourmet food, at the same time holiday liao so can find friends to EXERCISE regularly! ^^
Rebecca will be healthy for one month, so HUI EN and CARLENE! make sure besides the free STARBUCKS i'm getting, dont let me go there and buy again! hahaha. and make sure if i buy mian bao no CHOCOLATE one! lol.
and lastly, for one month, no stepping into mof for as long as i can.
7:43 PM ; smile?
Saturday, October 29, 2011
hello. just finished up with CSS meeting minutes. tired.
got the results for cm1131 alr. 60/100. thats bad. highest was 98!?! average was 72-75 like that. i'm in the the 25th percentile! oh my god. die. the worst thing is, only 3 chpts and i do so badly already. finals has 6 chpts! i so much more dead. plus, its really hard for me to concentrate in lecture. see, after 5-6 hours of lab on a tuessday, huungry, tired, gong dai-ed, have to go for 2hrs for cm1131 lecture. friday, after 4 hrs of lessons, nearing the end of the day plus weekends are coming, tired, bored, restless. how to focus? and i caught no ball when i tried to pay attention. how am i gonna pass!? i dont want to retake cm1131 again sia. gotta chiong i guess? no choice..
so, i'm tired. i hate school. i dont feel like schooling anymore. but what choice do i have. gahh. =(
3:19 PM ; smile?
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
sometimes, things are really just like that. can do nothing about it, cant do anything about it. why not just accept what's what and move on? there's no choice.
perhaps all these 19 years of my life, i lived without trying t understand each and every situation. kept thinking what i see, what i hear, what i know was always right. i was wrong. i failed to see the bigger picture. so, i had no right to bear any grudge against anything, anyone. it was all those weird things happening in my head. i ought to sort it out clearly often. else, i would always be making wrong choices and decisions. i dont want to live a life with: why did i do that? i regret it alot. i want to live it with: i made the right decision. i wont regret.
regretting takes one nowhere. yes, if one doesnt try, one may never know how something will turn out, but some things in life, u know u wont like it even if u never tried it before.
brings me to the topic on my future. since young, my ambition was to be a teacher. it followed me all the way till now. when i got my a level results, my relatives thought that i shouldnt go into teaching cos my results were 'too good'. does results matter? teaching requires knowledge, discipline and lots of other requirements. it is also a profession. its not some job someone out of despair would turn to. yes, it has its demands, its challenges. but, which job in the world doesnt have demands and challenges? if i cant handle the demands of a job i like, how would i be able to handle a job i dont actually like? everyday would just be a struggle. they dont know what i'm thinking. so here it is: i want to do something i like. faced with a challenge, conquering it would be a great satisfaction, a huge achievement. yet, if i do something i have no interest in, faced with a challenge, i would be pressurised, i would develop a strong dislike towards it, and in the end? i'll just give up.
so there's that and i have decided i will go into teaching as my career. no matter what.
11:28 AM ; smile?
Saturday, October 22, 2011
hello hello.
i wasted today again. rarr.
tmr i got to study lab test and go back to sch to watch a concert. rarr. actually, i dont feel like going cos monday got test.. but i bought the ticket alr! =(
and lastly. i'm too bored.
10:19 PM ; smile?
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
thought about it. no point getting sad over things. no point getting depressed. laugh it off, cry it off. at most i'll go get some retail therapy and music therapy. whatever the case is, i'm here means i'm here. no point thinking too much.
here's a song i really like after watching the drama in time with you
11:25 PM ; smile?
Monday, October 17, 2011
how i wish its alcohol that i'm drinking now, not coffee. its been a long time since i had a drink.. (and luomin, if u're reading, nope, no clubbing yet. hehe. i prefer peace and quiet =/)
my nose is runny runny runny. rarr.
1:48 AM ; smile?
Saturday, October 15, 2011
is it the stress factor? i've been super pms-al these few days though itss far too early for me to pms. rarr. >=/
6:13 PM ; smile?
Thursday, October 13, 2011
what makes a sad person sad? a happy person happy? an angry person angry? in life, we face so so so many things that give us so so many different emotions. we get angry, sad, happy all for a reason. but why is it so that sometimes we just feel so upset inside? for no reason at all? just a deep feeling of sadness that wont go away. wont let u smile. wont let u do anything. only thing it does is to well up ur eyes with tears, forcing u to hide in a corner to shed those tears away.
parts and parcel of life. its so confusing. i'd rather not live.
9:43 PM ; smile?
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
ughh. feeling unwell... feeling cold even though the windows and main door are closed. rainy seasons. sigh. tired ttm.
managed to stay awake for 20min in today's physical chem lecture only.. slept through the remaining lecture even till the lecture ended and lecturer left, next lecturer came in. when i woke up, the next lecture was about to start. just nice =) hate chem lectures. rarr.
i'm feeling cui. dont know what i ate wrong. diarrhea sia. zzzz. lucky i'm not going out later anymore.. so sleepy. gonna take somee diarrhea pills then sleep before i go do finish my lab report and inorg chem tutorial. tmr still gotta do more work. siann. =/
4:24 PM ; smile?
Saturday, October 08, 2011
torn up, cut up, chucked into the chute. please leave me alone.
4:17 PM ; smile?
good morning people, whoever's out there. nope, i didnt just wake up. i'm gonna sleep now. good nights people.
6:01 AM ; smile?
Friday, October 07, 2011
just when all the works pile up, just when there are so many things to complete, just when i'm stressed with all these, just when i'm so freaking pissed with things, just when i only want to focus and finish what i have to finish, just when i dont want to be bothered by any other thing, one sms leads to the point where i dont want to do anything, dont want to bother about every single thing including the work i have to complete.
ARGH I HATE LIFE.
11:31 PM ; smile?
Thursday, October 06, 2011
its thursday already!! and thursday is ending in 40minutes time? =( time flew again! well, my major accomplishment so far is to complete my HD brochure, watch the CM1111 elearning lectures and i guess that all. *jaw drop* thats very little! oh my tian. i still have cm1131 lecture, gek 1527 lectures (this also includes all those i have ponned), ma1421 lectures, and all the modules tutorials and my lab report, and to study for my lab test next week and my 1000words essay. well, for the essay i can push it aside till next week..... hehe.
so tonight, i will finish my lab report. then tmr, i'll go shopping with carlene and hui en. then there's css meeting. then, i'll go home to do tutorials? or watch more lectures? or just sleep? haha. hmm. maybe i should just sleep. hehehe. well it depends on how awake i am tmr~ see how ba.
so now, i'm gonna do my lab report. i'm super sleepy though. rawr. gd nights! hehe kidding. lab report!!
11:17 PM ; smile?
Monday, October 03, 2011
this morning, woke up, went to toilet, brushed teeth, took up the comb, something 'dropped out' from the comb. half awake, blur, stare at that thing, suddenly it moved. "MUMMY GOT COCKROACH!!!" fully awake. WAHAHAHHA. omg. scared the hell out of me. O.O thank god i didnt use the comb yet. and i got to know the power of mummy and the baygon. LOL.
1:44 PM ; smile?
Sunday, October 02, 2011
the higher your expectations, the greater your disappointment.
10:18 PM ; smile?
Saturday, October 01, 2011
its the beginning of a new month again. the 12pm bells just rang. haha. time literally flies. its as though school just started, yet 2 months ahs already passed.
dad's back from china! haha. went for breakfast this morning. been a long time since i had a super full breakfast. one plate of wanton mee, one cup of soya bean milk and a quarter of a you tiao. usually my breakfast dont have the mee portion. just some bread and coffee/malt drink. well, lunch's off for sure. too full...
and i dont know what to type already. =/ my anime's really loading slowly. zzz. and i'm super bored. i can start on my lab report and my gem assignment, but i dont feel like doing yet. so tired! last night i slept nicely, but i dreamt of studying. =.= as if mid terms wasnt enough. rarr.
