Monday, February 20, 2012
my tolerance level has been deproving lately. or is it there's too much for me to tolerate? i know i'm not a very nice person. but then sometimes its really hard to tolerate. i am a girl with a very bad temper. my family can verify this. my sec sch friends can verify this too. but i've tried my best to put up with so many things. so so so many things. very very afraid to make a single huge mistake that would cause me to be disliked again. tolerating is really really tough. i do hope that people can get the message.
have a reality check. reflect on yourself. find out what u have done wrong before or is doing wrong know. change for the better. it is hard to change. i understand. if its too hard, improve. bit by bit. be a better person. not for other's sake, but for ur own sake. dont do things that make urself appear silly. repeated mistakes is not cute/ignorant/ whatever not. its shows stupidity.
i dont want to have a day where i start screaming at ppl like a mad woman again. i dont like it when my temper gets really bad. and trust me, neither will anyone else like it.
ending off, with no offence to anyone.
11:50 PM ; smile?
Sunday, February 19, 2012
RECESS WEEK!
time to......
REST
DO PROJECT AND STUDY.
fml.
2:22 AM ; smile?
Sunday, February 12, 2012
what to do? some ppl are just so RARR. cant do no shit abt it too. what's the point of getting fed up. me gotta chill man. shucks. hope that one day i wont flare up. 世界末日will happen. 2012 will come true.
anyway. die. my long hair must go asap! =( dropping way too much hair! will become botak soon sia. ohmy.
7:42 PM ; smile?
Saturday, February 11, 2012
before i start on my gek project...
well, i just came home from my neighbour's 21st birthday party. poor 21 yr old got thrown into the pool and cake smashed into his face. lol. anyways, wow i realised that i'm a girl that wont grow up in ppl's view. first thing the birthday boy said to me was: you grew up! um.. well duh? i will grow. and and ya know? i'm only one yr younger. hahaha. so weird.. some of my aunts also think i'm like still in jc or something. ehhh. i'm alr in uni! ya know, i'm only a year younger than my other cousin who they readily accept as alr in uni.. =/ maybe i should start shaking off those fats. being chubby do make me look like a kid in a way... i'll try. hard but ya try lo. i'm turning 20 this yr alr! ohmy. my aim: to be nice slim and pretty by my 20th. HAHA IN MY DREAMS.
lalallalala. i love huang hong sheng! haha. okay randomness. =P
start workkkk!
10:09 PM ; smile?
Sunday, February 05, 2012
i'm so so tired. woke up at 1pm ytd and today. yes, i'm that tired. the horrible even week has just passed. but the workload hasnt passed. its frustrating sometimes. u ask a question but the reply is so vague. or u dont get the reply at all. i dont know how exactly things should be done. i dunno if i should just go ahead with what i have in mind or just ask and ask and ask. if i go ahead, what if i do wrong? its the first time i'm planning for something. its not something i know like since long long ago. its not an easy job trying to liaise with so many ppl. on top of the other work i have to do. argh. sometimes i get so pissed i just wanna throw everything aside.
tests, homework, projects, random events that just pop out of no where. meetings where everyone talks super fast making it so difficult to get correct info down. argh argh argh argh argh. i regret lots liao.
pardon me, i just feel overloaded with work.
4:02 PM ; smile?
