Saturday, August 23, 2008
after a long long long long long time....i am finally posting. haha.
okay.com died. ya dats one of the reason i cant blog.. so i am now using my bro's laptop. ya. sian only can use when he is not at home. lala.. and i cant even play. cos if he noe i play he will ban me from the laptop COS prelim is like next week and o levels is like less than 2months later. zzzz. i wan to play.. HAHA. i got play la. he dunno only.
many things have happened lately. its all so weird. ya.. its mainly my fault. MY FAULT. M-Y F-A-U-L-T. REALLY.. ME WITH A SUCKY ATTITUTE.. me causing all the nonsense. me throwing temper. my bro can i cannot. stupid. ya i admit. but its not only me doing al these my brother is doing the same but its all my fault.
friends. we made up months ago.. all of a sudden i am like nobody to them? hello? anyone? why are u all like not happy with me? i noe u all dun like me.. unlike my chracter. but its my character.. it cant be changed that easily. my feelings cannot just say CHANGE and it changes. as much as u all dunno why, i too dunno why but honestly.. i dun like jess. i dunno why. but i just dun like.. its me.. its my problem.
so now. i stick more with amanda and yingjun. i can relate better to them than to jess. i noe i still have to keep my distance from them cos they were a pair. without me.. there were two best friends.. two is a pair. three's a crowd. so i am just being the extra one there okay?
study study and study.. for the sake of o levels, for the sake of meeting expectations but not for my own sake.. ya right.. its for my future.. but can u all stop treating me like i thing that does nothing but study? my brother expect me not to touch the laptop whenever its within 2 months of any exams. its like HELLO? he plays computer when it was his o levels and a levels? pls. i am already very good le okay. when its during my exam period i do not play the computer. unlike them. wth..
i dun care le lah.. everytime sick is mild flu only. can i just fall very sick like high fever or something so that i need not go to school? everytime i step into school, i dread it super super alot. i hate school. joash has hand foot mouth disease. i kinda jealous man. how i wish i was the one sick instead. so i dun need to go school. so i dont need to face so so many things. maybe, maybe i should just disappear. now all i have is a cold caught from running under the rain ytd and it just wont give me a high fever to not go to school. UGH!!!!!!
6:15 PM ; smile?
