i'm feeling cui cui now.. yea partly cos i just woke up from dozing off in front of my laptop.. and my stupid laptop shut down by itself.. and so, my conver with luomin and qiaoni disappeared. dont even have history saved.. what the... zzz.
work has been uber tiring.. working and working and working.. and cos of work, i cant go to alot of friends meet up. wah lau. sucks ttm. and i'm so tired to the point that besides work, i dont want do anything liao.. in fact i dont feel like working alr.. but i cant quit like now also.. zzzz.
crappy thing is that i have driving lesson at 8.15am later. almost forgot abt it. heng i rmbed.. but then, tmr i sure gong dai one. after lesson got to rush to work then all the way to 1030pm. nice. i am gone-ed.
ciaos then.
2:36 AM ; smile?
Monday, February 21, 2011
a level's results in a week. a week. like everyone else, i'm super scared of it. brings me back to the time when i was studying for a's.. headed to amk library everyday for a week right before the exams just to study.. from 10am all the way to 9pm everyday.. halfway studying, dozing off, getting fed up at myself for being unable to solve so so so many math problems, making so so so many careless mistakes.. then it was a levels.. the first paper chemistry killed everyone.. the subject i had most confidence in, gave me the greatest breakdown.. it kinda sucked alot alot.. then the rest of the papers just went by, then econs also.. yea sucked.. so in the end, almost everything.. sucked.. hah.. suddenly, just thought of all the things that happened during a's.. sleeping at 1 or 2 am everyday, studying till i wanna die, crying every night cos of the stress. whoa.. that happened 3mths ago? so much time has passed since then.. the big A's.. how will the results be? great disappointment? great happiness? or just purely no feelings at all? we all dont know.
alright, time to prepare to head out for my driving lesson.. ciaos.
jiu, xi guan jiu hao... yi qie, xi guan jiu hao. yi qie hui mei shi de,
the white choco brownie and choco brownie are finally out of the oven! i'm supposed to wait for them to cool down then cut and pack into box, but then, i'm too too tired and lazy now.. it will take at least one hour to cool down.. so... tmr then wake up earlier and cut. tmr still got tuition. i'm kinda sick and tired of it. every tuition lesson go there and get angry only. everytime mark work want to vomit blood only.. abit shou bu liao le eh. but then like, sighhhh. how to say.. =//
i feel as though i'm sleep deprived.. everyday sleep 6hrs plus. and every night.. the dreams are whoa.. work in the day not enough.. at night dream also work! wah piang. abit siao ah.. my life like revolves around work only now. =.= i need a nice long undisturbed sleep! the answer: drink alcohol tmr night and sleep all the way!! luomin is gonna call me alcohol ghost again.. but, i just wanna sleep nicely.. =//
i continue to work myself till fatigue so that i wouldnt think of you. though, 我突然好想你...
2:00 AM ; smile?
Friday, February 18, 2011
i'm bored. waking up at 7plus for driving lesson is o.o super sleepy and gong dai. okay la my speed control today not so bad. my right turns okay. my left turns hit kerb abit. my foot, step on accelerator when supposed to brake. omg. i was like 'shit!' when i realised i step wrong. heng never kena scold. and my changing lanes. lol. the car go liddat:as what the instructor say: go haywire.
oh man. luomin leaving mof. so... sad lo.. no more luomin to talk to, no more luomin to bully, and for luomin, no more rebecca to xia and bully. so, sad lo. but there's nth i can do but just work and work and work with my -.- face. hahahaha.
there's 5hrs before i have to leave for work. i am so bored.. time to listen to music and emo~
10:32 AM ; smile?
i realised something. everytime i'm in a good mood, something will make me unhappy later in the day. like i happy happy go work, then tio customer kaobei for no reason. if not is happy happy go work, then make mistake, then become disappointed.
today, actually its ytd. now fri liao. thursday. morning wake up go dentist fill up my cavity. my gosh la. one hole in the teeth cost $110. wth? pri and sec sch used to be foc la. and not to mention that the filling process was ouch. pain. then go admiralty, to ssdc. reach there, wah. theory trial tests fully booked. cant practice for my ftt test. so, rot in the canteen there and read the ftt book, sianz for 2 hrs. ftt. wah sai. the qns like weird one lo. so anyhow guess guess. lucky i passed. 49/50. too bad no full marks. okay then happy happy go amk liao. reach there eat liao, sian liao then start work. still happy happy one.. then. okay la can say i xiao qi or what. but then enough le can. why must keep saying me and _ _ _ _ _ _ _. once okay. twice okay. a few more times okay. but then . how long alr. one month liao eh. one month. my tolerance is damn lan one. so i damn buay song lo.
and what the helll!? today got 3 big insect encounter liao leh! one at mof, one in the lift, and now one flew on my laptop screen. working at mof let me got used to small fruitflies and houseflies alr but still, the phobia is still there. yuck. just now in the lift that one is one huge huge huge huge huge beetle like 7cm long?! then it was moving, i was like glued to the door trying to get out once the lift door opened. omg laaaaa.
woooohoooo. died. 8hrs later is my driving lesson. arghhhhh. i scared i shui bu xing then gong gong dai dai go drive ah.. then ahh.. hahaha. better not say liao. touch wood touch wood.
and yesh! tmr is the last day of my consecutive 11days of work! cant wait for off day on saturday! go for tuition in morn, go home and slack! then dinner at night! whee~ =D
12:01 AM ; smile?
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
i'm becoming a alcohol ghost. as what luomin says. haha. well, not really la.. just feel like drinking something. anyway, alcohol helps me sleep better. ytd drank red wine.. then fell aslp while talking to luomin on msn. she thought i drunk then fainted! lmao! luo min ah luomin. my funny friend.
driving lesson! haha today's lesson was funny too. i was late for lesson. o.o then fast fast rush over, get into car, adjust seat and mirror then stone at the side mirrors. couldnt find the controls to adjust the mirror., lol. then drive around abit, almost bang into walls, mount kerbs.. and going into a lane without stopping to check cars on the right. the instructor stepped brake and tell me: next time if i want do that tell him first. he jummp out of car first. if not got oncoming vehicle die alr. lol!!! super funny la. this instructor is super nice. hahahaa..
went home! lao-ed yusheng. haha. thats my lunch! haha. nice nice. then go prepare for work. go return lib books, i borrow but never read. lol. then go draw money then buy koi. lucky i managed to order before the queue became super long. haha. then whoa.. 7 cups of koi. heavy heavy! i was like whoaaaaa. haha so, go put the kois at mof then go pay my bro's insurance. lol. sianz. then go back mof kai gong lo. and work was. OMFG STTM and WTF!?!? valentines eh. couples plus couples. plus some families, etc etc. wait long complain, then all the way leh. serve one table walk back hor, at least 2 to 3 tables complain. then rush to serve food, clear table, wah seh. walk past, kena complain again. sian la. keep getting scolded by customers. then wahh. work that time, like never ending one. one table go, one table come. whee. busy like siao. and and! omg! i made a fool out of myself. duno why i always so easy get xia dao. sai man. aiyoooo.
alright. i'm sian alr. hands tired. suddenly feel like blogging, then dont feel like continuing liao. but this post kinda lonnng. ciaos.
12:52 AM ; smile?
Monday, February 14, 2011
its valentines again. and yup, its a lonely valentines again. well.. okay starting from the time i actually started liking ppl, well it has been say, 6 to 7 yrs of lonely valentines? i shld be used to it yea? but still, every year, same day, same month, when you see couples together lovingly, and yet u are alone, it kinda, you know, sucks. its the day singles like me will become emoshit in a way.. =/ and on top of that, later, work, someone i kinda offended is working too. i am super scared ttm. i made him angry on saturday night. sunday he never work. i was super scared when i went to work on sunday, kinda lucky that he wasnt working. but today. oh no. i duno why, but i always get super super scared when i make someone angry. seriously, the effects are bad. i couldnt stop myself from crying everytime i thought of the angry look on his face. and i couldnt fall asleep at night. the next day at work, though i ate nothing, i couldnt eat much for lunch. ended up eating a bread only for the whole day. at night, to make myself sleep, i drank wine. its kinda bad eh. i think i am a super huge weirdo. weird dao cannot weird. well, i only ave myself to blame for being so stupid.
and thats that, so ciao and happy(sad) valentines to all couples and singles!
1:44 PM ; smile?
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
time didnt solve everything. i still like you. alot. alot alot. but........
12:12 AM ; smile?
Thursday, February 03, 2011
happy chinese new year! hmm.. in the new year mood yet? can say.. not really.. cos i've been hearing new year songs since like early jan and i got sick and tired of them. esp:
"嘻嘻哈哈， 祝你过个快乐年！"
yup. that was one cruel lyrics that got stuck in my head and caused me to be unable to sleep.
well thats that.. firstly, work! well.. i'm pretty muc gotten used to it.. tiring as it may be, it does has it fun parts, busy parts, stressful parts, angry parts and the best thing abt it, we get to bitch abt bitchy customers. they are freaking annoying! trust me on that. males, females, both equally argh! like so.. -.- thank god i work with luomin. working with her seems so much funner then working alone. ya and its fun for her too cos she get to make me scream and stuff. rawr. lol. right luomin? or shld it be. right, luuuuooooooo miiiiiiiiiinnnnn~ lol. goosebumps! hahahaha!
well and then yup there's dinner with er ge and erjie(bro's gf). well awkward firs meeting. dinner at mof. lol. ya i have been eating too much mof. shld cut down. liddat my money's all gonna go poof on food. plus eating out ah. wah seh. pockets and weight. wow. so then i got better along with er jie after 2 shopping sessions.. both of us love to bully my bro. wahaha. he suay. muahaha. xP poor poor bro.. well i'll be seeing her soon again on chu er, thats tmr.. (its chu yi now btw)
and there that, so reunion dinner! i guess this is the difference between reunion dinners and normal dinners. there's this warm fuzzy feeling around the table, everyone snatching for ingredients in the steamboat, me being a 'spoilt' child sitting there just telling my mum and dad what they want and they'll get it for me. haha! its like that every year. i guess, cny is really something that makes me feel.. i dont know, warm? happy? and its a time to spend more time tgt as a whole family since dad's always outstationed most of the time. oh wells. sigh. i have work now.. so though he's back.. its hard to spend time tgt as a family.. well cny just began. it will be a joyful season, a happy season, a loving season. a season for all. enjoy urselves ppl!
as what the instructor say: go haywire.