Wednesday, January 31, 2007
YOZ!! back from school!!!! ahhh.. so tired!! went for co straight after school..zz.. so siann.. den go for tkd.. stupid.. one teacher kick the volleyball and hit until my nose.. den clara say i become rudolf the red nose reindeer.. arghh.. hahaha..
tired!!! dunno ;ater got tuition anot.. the phone duno say wat the centre is closed.. later i call again bahh.. lol.. ahh.. i damn hungry now. go eat le.. didnt eat my lunch.. hahaha...
6:51 PM ; smile?
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
OH YA!!! i forgot to say this!!! I PASSED MY CHINESE TEST!!! with a B3 summore.. hahahahahaha.. YAY!!! i guess miracles DO really happen bahh!!! YAY!!! whoo.. but den hor. . i think i gonna fail my biology.. sigh.. hahaha.. osmosis is water POTENTIAL.. i blurly wrote water CONCENTRATION.. I AM SOOOOO DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3:10 PM ; smile?
hello!!! lol.. today i come home sooo early.. gonna make specs later bahh.. i hope my mum dun go against her words AGAIN.. hee.. lol.. so sian.. common tests coming le!!! some tests if after school one.. wah lau lor.. so sian.. hahahaha.. zzz.. its weird ar the dates;; from 6-12 feb den 23rd feb and 2nd march.. lol.. so messed up..
eating tidbits.. lol.. wanna save money.. never eat lunch come home and eat biscuits all these.. hahaha.. xP
siannxxxx... tml got tkd.. den co.. hmm.. tml straight after sch i go for co den go for tkd den go back for co.. yeah.. its gonna be bussssyyy.. haha.. tml got tuition!!!! sobs.. skipping lunch tml.. hee...
arghh.. pissed..
2:48 PM ; smile?
Monday, January 29, 2007
BOO!!!!! lalalala.. my mum so evil.. never bring me go make specs.. guess tml me and my bro will force her.. hee.. my bro wanna get contacts.. sobs.. i cant get contacts.. the optician last time say my eyes too small for the contatcs.. haix.. dunno why.. my eyes is the smallest in the family.. SOBS!!! hahahahaha.. i inherited 2 bad genes.. no1.. small eyes.. no2.. i am so SHORT!! hahahaha.. lol..
whee.. co today quite fun.. i was kinda busy.. lol.. gotta take attendance.. wahh.. i was like so busy... everytime someone come in i gotta take their attendance.. sigh.. den at the end of the practice i have to go around asking ppl.. why were u late??? lol.. it was kinda awkward to ask the sec 1s.. gotta ask in chinese.. most of them china ppl.. i think.. so siann.. den when they reply.. they speak kinda fast.. haha.. lucky i been to china before can roughly catch up with wat they say.. hee..
bored bored bored!!! i gotta sell mugs.. haha.. sold one le.. all thanks to my dear auntie!!! YAY.. wednesday will get the money from jiaying.. oh ya.. jiaying is vice chairman of the class. WHOA.. hahahahaha..
lalalala.. gotta jiayou le.. today is the day i start my serious studying.. yep... no more daydreaming..lol.. i still daydream.. hee.. cant help it.. too many things to think abt le.. haha.. but den serious studying still starts.. paid attention during chemistry, maths, english, biology, physics, and a little of chinese.. haha.. yepp.. gotta study hard.. common test coming le.. and den.. sigh.. i scared i fail all my tests.. sigh.. first time having common test soooo early.. wahh.. lol..
must JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!! haha.. u too bahh jiahao.. lol..
9:58 PM ; smile?
Sunday, January 28, 2007
busy.. haha.. just finished up some CO minutes.. lol.. i sent yu ting alot of emails.. haha.. all abt co de.. wahh.. co these few days got alot of things for me to do.. i still halfway thru the contact list.. zzz.. so bored.. hahahaha..
hmm.. woke up today.. ate breakfast.. packed up my room so dat my bed can be visible.. hee.. den started doing my hmwk.. do physics.. haha.. didnt finish.. not sure how to do.. later ask my bro.. haha.. so ate lunch.. den.. now.. did some co stuff.. hmm.. think i gonna play aidition for awhile before going to study for my chem test bahh.. lol.. now must study harder.. but must leave breaks in between and play com for awhile.. hee.. last nite i played.. wahh.. i kinda won many games.. hahaha.. okays.. go play for awhile first..
been trying to get my mum to bring me to the optician shop.. haix.. i need to make a new pair of specs for studying de.. or else i everytime cannot see the white board clearly.. haha.. yep.. and i changing my current specs the frame.. moss is like growing on it and its so ewwwww.. haha..
tata..
1:28 PM ; smile?
Saturday, January 27, 2007
lazy to blog much.. haha.. had erhu lesson at wang lao shi hse.. went to aquarius by the park condo at bedok there.. wahh.. the facilities there were like WOW.. hahaha.. lol.. there very nice.. hahaha. the lesson was very fun also.. hahaha.. laughed alot.. heee...
i guess i was wrong in the first place.. yeah.. i didnt apologise.. but i guess we are frens again.. yeah..
lalalalalala.. completed CO attendance list and minutes le!!! lalala.. so relaxed now.. kinda tired.. zzzzzzzz.. sleeping sooonn.. but den hor.. i still eating my dinner.. wahahahahahaha.. oww.. stomach ache.. uh oh..
coughing and coughing.. wahh.. but i am still eating chocolates. hee.. who ask my bro so good to me give me eat chocolates.. hahahahahaha.. YAY!! wheeeeeeee!!!!!!!
tuition = SIANX!!!!!! hahahahahaha...
9:18 PM ; smile?
wahh.. i do CO work till i forgot to eat my lunch.. haha.. now i gotta eat cold lunch.. haha..
blog again later bahh.. gotta go for tuition le!!!
4:06 PM ; smile?
yesterday was tiring!!! had bio experiment.. whee.. it was fun!! hee.. school.. lol.. so sian.. hard to do maths lor.. my head always hurt during maths lesson.. wahh.. cannot lose focus!!! hee..
after school.. had CO committee meeting.. the meeting so serious.. whole day say dun digress.. lol. haha.. i realised dat i cannot release my grip on CO work le.. or else all my hard work will be gone to waste.. hee.. the meeting lasted for 3 hrs.. haha.. so loonnggg... i gotta update attendance list and contact list.. wahh..
went back home.. watch tv eat and used the com.. typed out the minutes of the meeting.. wahh.. it was 3 pages long.. we were planning abt a day camp.. hahaha.. discussed alot.. den wanted to update the contact list.. but my bro took over and used.. in the end.. i didnt do the conntact list and attendance list.. haha.. fell asleep pn my bed.. lol.. too tired..
later got erhu lesson.. wang lao shi injured himself so gotta go his hse for lesson instead.. zz.. bedok leh. so far away.. later still got tuition.. haix.. still gotta fo hmwk and study for tests.. ahhh. hahahahaha..
phew.. dat was scary..
9:20 AM ; smile?
Thursday, January 25, 2007
dead.. i am so so so so so so clueless on wat i shld do now.. i have not done my hmwk dat is due today.. yeah.. shit lor.. dammit.. secretary work.. there is a agenda i am suppose to print.. okays.. no one has ever taught me how to do an agenda and how am i supposed to print it out for ALL the ex co members tml.. wat the hell lor.. can u at least teach me or explain to me.. like how am i suppose to do something i dunno..
treasurer.. dammit.. is like i dun have the treasurrer book.. charmaine says she need the book den can teach me.. i dunno whether the book is with charles or not.. i dunno.. everything is like so hard to do.. my head hurts again.. SHIT!!! i hate it..
no matter how busy i am.. i gotta do the work out.. yeah.. dat was wat i was told.. FINE.. i shall sacrifice my REST and STUDY time for the sake of the work.. dun get mad at me.. seriously.. wat u are asking me to do is very hard.. at least teach me properly.. how the hell would i noe wat are the things usually panned in a day camp.. i have NEVER ever planned one before.. i really dunno.. and plus.. i am still recovering from my illness. yeah.. maybe u dun see me looking dat sick.. I AM TRYING NOT TO MAKE MY FRENS WORRY FOR ME.. yeah.. maybe i am thinking too much.. i am just going going so going crazy.. i am getting sick and tired of my commitments to both CCAs.. can i just let go of all my work.. take a huge rest and concentrate more on my studies? can i? pls? u noe.. i hate it.. i hate it all... i dun like to be given less den one day to do a work out.. its like.. i have to do some other things.. i have to study.. yet i still have to do so much work for my ccas.. this is too tiring for me.. i want to rest.. take a big rest.. but there isnt anyday i can find to take a rest.. i just feel so so so so so tired.. i am giving up.. slowly.. i am releasing my tight grip on my CCA work.. its too tiring.. i cant take it anymore..
9:18 PM ; smile?
better from my sickness le.. the headaches arent dat pain anymore.. though they still come as and when they like.. sometimes.. they just wanna kill me.. flu is gone.. yea.. but got sore throat.. cough and cough.. zz.. i am so dead.. i slept thru maths lesson ytd and den today i was like clueless abt wat theacher is talking abt.. i just felt so sick ytd dat i just wanted to rest..
so.. i didnt go for CO.. my head just hurt too much and so i went home early hoping dat i could rest well before going for tuition.. but when i got home.. sigh.. dun wanna talk abt it.. i couldnt rest.. and my headache got worse.. so instead of resting.. i went to pack my room.. yeah.. the dust mdae my flu worse.. yea.. felt really sick.. so tired.. den went for tuition after my dinner.. it was cold and my head hurt alot.. yea..
went home.. i had to do my hmwk and study my chem test..at 11 liddat.. while studying chem.. my head went blank and i fell asleep.. too tired.. woke up a while later at 12plus.. wanted to brush my teeth.. but my bro was shitting in the toilet.. so waited quite long before i could go to sleep.. was so tired.. didnt study my chem and didnt finish my hmwks..
today.. went to sch quite happily.. yea.. duno why.. was happy.. maths.. sigh.. i was BLUR at wat teacher was saying.. gotta ask bro to teach me later.. still gotta self study.. i gonna start studying hard le.. or i will suffer.. tkd.. okays... some sec 1s didnt come.. dunno why.. training was quite tiring.. tired.. at the end of the lesson.. so tired.. i thought too much.. at the thought of going home.. i.. i kinda almost cried.. the reason? i dun wanna talk abt it..
tml got CO committee meeting.. gotta finish ytd's de minutes.. ya.. cant go out with clara le.. dots..
how can u be like this.. how can u not respect ur own mother??
suffering all the pain alone.. dats wat i am here on earth for.. at least.. i guess so..
6:12 PM ; smile?
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
hello.. zz.. head hurts ALOT.. haha.. so sian.. last nite fell asleep after lying on the bed sneezing like tens of times and clutching my head which was like so PAIN.. haha..
this morning.. went to sch.. wahh// my head so pain.. felt dizzy.. lol.. flu.. wahh.. felt really sick.. something went into my eye.. making it red and a little swollen throughout the english periods.. wahh.. haha.. i didnt wear my specs and was doing work.. lol... i did my work blindly.. as in literally.. hahaha..during SS.. oops.. i almost vomited.. haha.. yuckss.. haha.. lucky i didnt vomit.. recess.. ate and den ate my medicine.. i slept through chinese periods.. haha.. couldnt stand it.. my head was like so pain and the medicine made me super drowsy.. i slept through the two periods.. haha.. sun lao shi let.. haha..
dismissal.. felt better after sleeping.. went to look for charmaine.. booo.. she cant teach me the accounting thingy cos the book is somewhere with someone else.. gotta go find the book.. haix.. so went to sun plaza with qiao ni.. haha.. go shop for my cousin's b dae present.. bought her present le.. i bought some stuff for myself too.. haha.. not much.. just ear sticks and straws to fold hearts.. lol.. i think i was attempting suicide.. lol.. down with flu and sore throat still go and eat kfc.. haha.. eat so much so full.. when drinkning the lemonade i was like so darn cold.. gave up drinkning it.. hee.. den went with qiao ni to buy clothes.. she gotta buy her new year clothes.. after dat we ate ice cream.. we siao de.. flu still eat kfc and ice cream.. we were shivering in macs.. haha.. both of us didnt finish our ice cream.. haha.. if tml both of us nver come sch u shld noe wat happen le.. haha.. serious flu.. LOL.. den can skip chinese test.. hahaha.. nahh.. think i will still be going to school tml.. hahaha.. later eat medicine again after dinner bahhx..
kays.. gotta go le.. my bro gonna take over le.. byez..
说不出的想念
6:02 PM ; smile?
Monday, January 22, 2007
wheeeeeeeee.. i super high today.. hahax.. good mood today.. lol.. but sleepy.. lol.. haha.. english was boring.. haha.. comprehension test.. he, fail,she fail, i fail.. EVERYBODY fail!!! hahaha.. LOL.. so funnie.. highest was 16.5/37.. i got 15.5 hahahaha.. lols....
CO today was FUN FUN FUIN!!! hahaha.. learnt the new year songs.. gong xi and ling zhong ye hui.. haha.. i first time playing gong xi.. mastered it easily cos it was easy.. ling zhong ye hui.. HARD.. lol. not my first time playing but den.. dat i played it on my erhu.. now is on gaohu.. wahhh.. not used to it.. haha.. OH YA.. theres a part where u play and gotta ahout HEY at the same time.. hahaha.. i tried shouting but no sound came out.. hahahaha.. laughing like siao.. lol.. everyone was laughoing and everyone was high.. for the first time.. CO is funner and tkd!!!=x haha.. i got selected for CO camp.. booo.. haha.. second time taking part le.. =) hahaha.. the first time i went for the auditon i TOTALLY screwed upp.. too nervous.. hahaha.. i was like shit..i played everything wrongly.. hahaha.. nvm.. jia you this time.. wonder if i will be able to make it through the auditions this tme round... =)
aHHHH... sudden flu.. hmm.. when i wanna fall sick i dun fall sick.. when i dun wanna fall sick i fall sick.. wahh.. i cant breathe properly.. nose is blocked.. hahaha.. disgusting lor.. halfway during lesson my mucuous[dunno how to spell] kept wanting to come out.. LOL.. gotta ask around for tissue.. WAHH.. hahahahahaha.. zzz.. been getting lots of stomach pains recently.. not the type gotta rush to toilet the lah.. just sudden pains and den its gone.. wahh.. i feel so sick.. arghh.. zzz...
in the midst of doing my EL.. hahahaha.. lol.. so sian.. i actually miss out a point in my work.. ahh.. lol.. sianx... better faster finish bahh.. still gotta settle some CO stuff.. zz. haha.. tml staying backk.. asking charmaine abt the treasurer thingy.. gotta settle all the money thingys in tkd.. hahahaa.. i so BUSY!!!!
everything will be just fine.. everything will be back to normal soon.. dun ever give up!!!
8:55 PM ; smile?
Sunday, January 21, 2007
OMG!! i am so laughing hard now.. lol.. shiir.. ur imgination very feng fu.. xP hahahahahahahahahahaha.. omg.. cheated of my feelings? lol... seriously.. i nver thought of dat before.. funnie.. hahaha
theres someone who keeps calling me.. lol.. i think its some guy called wen jie.. got one time he sms me ask me i work finish alrdy anot.. obviously he got the wrong person cos i dun work.. lol.. i also not sure if he is the caller cosi cant see the number dat calls in.. lol.. i only noe when ppl call is because the m1 will send a msg say my amount of 5cents is low pls top up asap.. hahahaha.. so funnie..
yeah.. i cheered up quite alot.. things dat happened are bygones.. let them past.. but.. keep them deep in ur heart.. so dat u can remember them forever.. yeah..
for god's sake.. whoever u are.. instead of calling can u at least sms? lol.. i am tired of deleting m1's stupid msg.. ahhh.. lol..
been folding lots of hearts lately.. hmm.. wanna noe why? ask me.. i might tell u.. =) hahaha..
9:04 PM ; smile?
elaborating on ytd's day at nuovo.. hmm.. my uncles say long time no see i looked different.. lol.. i guess is because of my dressing bahhx.. haha... i seldom dress liddat.. dress for fun de.. =) haha.. just see dat clothe hang there i never wear before de and den i dun wanna keep wearing the same clothes everytime i go out so i wear dat lor.. haha..
when i reached there.. wahh.. my ma nver tell me they at the function room.. lols.. i went all the way up to their house.. hahaha.. den went down to the function room.. haha.. den realised dat they were there.. lol.. ate my lunch and den we talked.. lol.. i kena forced to play the erhu.. wah.. they so evil.. hehe.. den we played tabloe soccer.. whoo.. haha.. i first time playing team up with my cousin still can win.. lol.. hahaha.. it was fun!! but den.. at 4pm.. we left le.. go home.. lol.. so sad.. went home.. haix.. do hmwk.. did my biology.. lol.. i got so many blank spaces.. hehe.. bio very hard.. lol.. ltr still gotta do english.. den.. physics.. den study for chemistry and chinese tests.. WAHHH... can die lor.. hehe.. lol.. kaes i go research on my english hmwk le. tata..
i guess this will be a dream dat will never come true.. the dream i had.. it will never ever happen bahhx.. if it does.. den it will be a miracle.. but.. will miracles happen?
10:09 AM ; smile?
Saturday, January 20, 2007
committee meeting.. sianx.. stupid chairman.. made me go all the way back home again just to get a calendar.. ... arghh..
after the meeting.. changed my clothes.. lol.. my clothes kinda were like er.. lol.. watever.. went for erhu lesson.. zz.. getting bored.. learnt finish kong shan niao yu le.. wahh.. now i noe how to make bird sounds with my erhu le!! =) but not as good as wang lao shi.. duh.. haha..
after lesson.. went to nuovo.. yep.. felicia is one month old le.. =) she was sooooooo cute!! hehe.. when she yawn.. ppl were like.. whoa.. so cute!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha.. new baby cousin yay!! next time if i gotta take a break from my work maybe see if i can go and play with her.. haha.. ng xiang yi felicia.. haha.. ng xiang qi fiona is an older sister le!!! two cute cousins!!! haha..
been folding quite alot of hearts lately.. lol.. amanda taught me and i have been trying to perfect my skills.. now dats its ok le.. i have been folding quite alot.. there is a reason to it.. but i am not telling.. haha.. usually when i fold i will write some short msg in it.. lol.. dun think wai hor.. i not folding for bf okays.. cos i dun even have one.. =)
i guess things will nver be the same again..
10:06 PM ; smile?
phew.. for the past half an hour i was trying on clothes.. LOL.. ltr go fiona's hse party mahh.. must wear nicer de.. =) haha.. the shirt is my cousin give me de.. looks kinda nice.. yea.. i decided not to tie my hair too.. haha... lol.. so tired.. zzz...
8:37 AM ; smile?
hi... wake so early.. sigh.. gotta for committee meeting.. zz.. so sian.. den gotta go erhu lesson.. den.. after dat go fiona hse!! FELICIA is one month old today!!! WHHEEEE.. i bet she is vry cute.. i haven see her yet.. =( lol.. today will see her le.. although i will be late for the party.. cos of my erhu lesson.. lol..
be happy.. yea.. dats the way.. dun let ur emotions over come u..
guo qu de yi qie gai zen me fang kai?
7:58 AM ; smile?
Friday, January 19, 2007
yep.. 2007.. big difference.... now.. there is still a big difference.. i dunno if i can face u like before.. dunno if i will start to avoid u.. dunno if i can keep my frenship with u.. wat if one day.. we are no longer frens? i think it will hurt.. alot.. but nevertheless.. life still have to go on.. zhi yao xiao yi xiao shen me shi qing dou guo de liao de.. wo xiang.. wo yi ding yao zuo de dao zhe ge bah.. wu gui jing shen.. jiayou!
today was a boring day.. lol.. went to school.. had english.. zz bored.. den biology.. stupid microscope so hard to work one.. den chinese.. zz.. slept through it.. lol.. amanda taught me how to fold hearts.. lol.. den recess.. ate den went to the library to photocopy some CO stuff.. now dat the sec ones are here i have more things to do like finding out their names and classes, contacts etc.. siannnnxxx.. den got maths.. mr tan nver come but left us alot of hmwwk to do.. sigh.. so tired.. i blurly copied question 3f instead 2f and got pissed with myself.. oops.. guess i was kinda in a bad mood.. things will get better anyway.. den was assembly.. i didnt noe wat mrs tan was saying abt.. me and weng sun were like sleeping and day dreaming.. hahahaha... lol.. den.. dismissal.. i went to eat with weng sun.. after eating.. sigh.. nth to do.. cant find anyone to go out with.. so.. go home.. zz.. i reached home at 1.35 pm.. i broke record man.. lol.. i usually go home at 5 or 6 plus de.. hahaha... den.. bored.. nth to do.. went downstairs to refresh my blading skills.. lol.. i almost fell down when going down i small slope.. haha.. i was like WHOA and swinging my arms to prevent myself from falling.. guess i gotta practice even more le.. haha..
cheer up.. things eventually will get better.. so.. can i please stop crying? crying so suddenly liddat will give my frens a shock.. i dun wanna worry them.. cheer up rebecca.. things will eventually get better.. let the past be past and look forward to the future...
8:22 PM ; smile?
Thursday, January 18, 2007
.. i cant tag at my tagboard.. dunno why.. so reply to one tag only.. lol..
JIAHAO: u finally came online but i cannot come online.. dots.. training.. its gonna be a HUGE difference now dat the sec 1s have joined..
oh ya.. nxt tuesday.. planning to play badminton with luo min and hopefully gena.. hmm.. see if i can book my hse downstairs the badminton court.. =)
8:34 PM ; smile?
wat am i doing? i lost focus.. yea.. when sir was teaching..i kinda like drifted off.. .until suddeny i heard.. hello? rebecca? good morning.. i was like OMG!! shit.. i actually just stood there for a period of time not doing anything staring into space.. wat the.. i got a shock and almost cried.. arghh.. i just feel so confused rite now..
things have been so different ever since 2007 begun.. had new friends.. new life.. new way of studying.. and.. new stresses.. i feel so.. so not like myself.. i used to be a happy cheery yet bad tempered.. but now.. i dun feel happiness just sadness... and my temper isnt that bad anymore.. my bad temper gone is a good thing.. but i dun like it when my frens get sad because of my unhappiness.. i dun like it... i tried my hardest to be happy.. just like today.. but.. i soon lost focus.. i was laughing away.. and yet suddenly.. i was like... sigh.. when will things get better?
can someone help me? help me become really really really happy? i just wanna scream out loud.. really.. but where and when can i do dat?
its just so so so so confusing...
8:11 PM ; smile?
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
i have gone completely nuts.. yea.. i am crazy now..
morning.. i reached school.. sulking.. and i cant believe i actually let myself cry suddenly just liddat.. without saying anything.. when teacher is teaching.. i was like staring into mid air.. thinking thinking.. den all of a sudden.. i started being so weird.. laughing and laughing.. so so so so weird!! ugh.. perhaps i really am crazy now.. pfft.. wat have i done to make myself so so so crazy.. arghh..
sigh.. getting bored.. went to j8 just now.. avoid me for all i care.. i am not gonna care abt u le.. i hate u.. went to buy my physics practical wkbk den lunched with qiao ni.. den went for co sectional.. den i now i am backk home.. feeling so hungry even though i ate ALOT for lunch just now.. argghh.. i am going nuts...
homework time now.. zz.. so bored.. bye..
wat am i doing.. wat the HELL am i doing? wat did i do??????
4:52 PM ; smile?
Monday, January 15, 2007
hmm.. so tired.. there is just too much on my mind.. its hard to get it off my mind.. if i try really really hard.. i will just cry.. break down.. i dunno why.. its just too.. i dunno how to say.. cant really study hard.. cant even bother to concentrate on my studies.. i am just so so so tired.. everything is like suddenly so.. ahh.. i dunno how to say.. just kinda very stressed up.. i keep staring into space all of a sudden.. and ppl will like.. why u so sad liddat de.. well.. i guess this is me.. i dun really wanna say my problems out.. i just dun wan to.. i dunno..
wat shld i do?
10:14 PM ; smile?
Sunday, January 14, 2007
i am killing myself.. i am so stupid.. i got cough.. yet i stuffing myself with chocolate bicuits like siao.. there is nth else to eat.. can u believe dat i am actually eating m,y breakfast now? its like its 1pm now.. -.- i woke up late.. haha.. too tired..
gotta do hmwk ltr.. tml got 3 periods of maths,.. A maths.. die la.. i hate indices.. argghh.. stupid stupid stupid.. i am stupid/.. i cant remember if i have any other hmwk to do..
tml got CO.. its at 2.45pm.. they brought the time forward by 15minutes.. phew.. i gotta rush through lunch le.. aiyah.. i might even be eating.. crap.. watever.. i am going crazy.. it sucks..
i think u got it wrong.. shld i re explain it?
12:56 PM ; smile?
Saturday, January 13, 2007
I LOVE U GUYS!!!! regina.. clara.. yingjun.. u guys are so nice to me.. you guys were there for me.. comforting me.. when i am sad.. being there for me.. this is the first time i felt so happy./. so blessed to have frens like u guys.. thank you all lot.. u guys.. u guys.. even though we arent very close frens.. regina.. u still were there for me.. thank u alot.. really thank u alot.. i really cant thank u all enough.. really thank u alt alot alot.. not forgetting yee sin.. she tried to cheer me up.. yet she still saw my sulking face and me screaming to myself crap.. thank you ALL..
11:02 PM ; smile?
i dun get u.. u dun talk to me at all.. for so long already.. ever since last year's teachers day celebrations.. and now.. just for the sake of ur cca u talk to me.. i dun feel like talking to u.. i just stare at u.. pissed.. and turned away.. i hate u.. ALOT.. i dun wanna see u ever again.. but its hard.. why must u be in the same english class as me? why? why why?? u dunno how much pressure is added t me everytime i see u.. and i hate it alot.. alot alot alot.. wat am supposed to do? can we continue to be frens anot? i dunno.. can u take some initiative and talk other stuff.. like not like asking.. u wanna make dedication for tkd? pls la.. stop torturing me.. stop tormenting me.. i dun like it.. i really dun like it.. to think dat we used to be good frens.. i hate it...
9:45 PM ; smile?
pass one week of school.. it was stressful.. but i guess i was the one who made myself feel so stressed up.. i shldnt be thinking too much in the first place..
CCA open hse.. i felt so bad.. i feel so bad for not helping CO at all.. okays.. the only thing i did was to jia you for some of them.. ya.. and i went to the CO booth and played the erhu.. okays.. but i still feel so bad inside.. i dunno why.. its all my fault.. if i hadnt choose tkd over CO..but den.. i dunno..tkd and CO.. tkd is something i love.. and CO is something dat is wat i must take responsibility for.. i feel so selfish.. responsibility is something dat is more important den love.. i dunno.. maybe i am wrong.. but i dunno why.. i just feel dat i am in the wrong..
tkd.. i lost focus.. ya.. i did some moves in the pattern wrongly.. i was kinda slower than the others.. my injury.. i think it is ALL MY FAULT.. its not the others fault.. blame me...
i have decided.. its time for me to live my life the way it was before.. 2007 had many changes for me.. but i am gonna change them all back to just like it was in 2006.. at least.. i will try to..
8:38 PM ; smile?
Friday, January 12, 2007
WAHH.. finally i get to use the com.. its been like one week since i touched it.. LOL.. so tiring.. this few days i really very stressed up.. really wanted to cry out.. cried a few times.. kinda bee thinking alot of things.. getting headches here and there.. wahhh... wasnt feeling well yesterday too.. but still had tkd open hse training.. made me felt worse.. i fell a sleep the moment my head hit the cushion on my sofa.. so tired..
know all my teachers le. some of them are kinda lame.. haix.. lazy to remember wat they did.. but i dun really like all of my teachers.. my class.. hmm.. been kinda bored.. nver talk much.. i think jessica must have felt kinda sian being with a stupid boring person like me.. watever.. i hate it.. just so tired..
CCA open hse tml.. i didnt noe it can be so stressful de.. its like there is SO MANY things to do and we lack man power.. now.. to think of it.. my head is starting to hurt again.. wahhhh.. ltr still gotta prepare for tml open hse.. so tired.. wanna sleep.. i still haven bathe yet.. oops.. haha.. so tired..
i feel like a betrayer.. so bad.. i feel dat i shldnt be neglecting CO.. i gotta jia you.. i dun wan CO to fall.. i dun wanna lose a CCA.. both CCas are like kinda part of my life le.. its hard to erase them from my life..
i still really wonder.. did i make the right choice? was i correct oor wrong to make that choice? this question still really bug me alot..
9:20 PM ; smile?
Sunday, January 07, 2007
WAHH.. grading over le.. i was SO nervous!! haha.. so wat lor.. my last front kick in the pattern.. one black belt guy stood in front of me den i cannot kick straight out lor.. wahh.. so i kicked so the low.. ugh.. so bad!! hahaha.. amanda very cute.. she call me and ask me where i am.. when i was like at home.. she thought my grading so early.. LOL.. haha... lol. but i think i shld be got pass the grading bahh..
after grading.. lol.. did some tkd open hse thingy.. wahh.. den went out to uy dinner.. lol.. so tired.. haha..
hmm.. i innocent meh? lol.. i dun think so bahh..
8:05 PM ; smile?
hmm.. bored.. gotta do my hmwk ltr.. zz.. haix.. still got grading.. lols.. i so tired!! hahahaha.. zz.. gotta iron my gi.. wahhx.. zzz.. lol.. so darn tired.. can i sleep again?NO. i gotta do lots of things.. haix.. stupid rebecca.. zzz.. i am so stupid.. lol.. its so boriing... haha.. lol..
someone is gonna get a scolding from me later.. hahaha., watch out..
12:54 PM ; smile?
wahhh. i slept for 12 hours straight!!! lol.. to tired le.. ltr got tkd grading.. whoa.. i getting nervous.. i so long never practice my pattern le.. haix.. ltr still gotta finish up my holiday hmwk.. AHHH.... so dead.. hahaha..
uh oh.. i am so sorry.. die le.. xP sorry kaes? lol i siao le.. hehe.. dun mind me..
sun burnt.. lol.. my neck so pain.. ahh. lol.. so bored.. i miss papa and mama bear.. gummy bears!! LOL..
11:09 AM ; smile?
Saturday, January 06, 2007
haix.. why do ppl say i am cute?? i dun think i am.. ugh.. lol.. but now i chaota le.. i dun think i cute le.. HAHA..
8:41 PM ; smile?
tired.. so tired.. zz.. camp was fun.. blog abt it now bahhx.. lazy to sleep.. lol.. tonite den sleep earlier..
day 1..
went to school.. got caught in the rain.. lol... didnt bring umbrella.. haha.. jessica evil.. fall sick and pangseh me never go camp.. sigh.. no partner le.. went school.. sat alone sulking.. i was just too bored.. no one to talk to.. lol.. haix.. why all my frens nver come same class as me de? took bus.. took boat.. reached pulau ubin.. wahhx.. the place still SO FAMILIAR to me! =) haha.. i went there for holiday before.. so nice!! haha.. first thing we did was gather.. taught how to pitch and un pitch tents.. wahh... my group members in the tent were.. regina and three other girls from other class.. and.. OMG lor.. got 2 rebeccas.. wahh.. one person call REBECCA.. u can here 2 HUH? wahhx.. LOL.. den we.. ehh.. AHH>> cant remember.. lol.. oh ya.. my trainer.. LOL.. funnie.. AMY aka MAMA BEAR and JEREMIAH aka PAPA BEAR.. and we are the GUMMY BEARS!! hahaha.. SO CUTE NAME for our GROUP 3E!! okays.. den we had lunch.. wahhx.. i was hungry.. lol.. i overslept in the morning and missed my breakfast lol.. haha.. so eat finish my food FAST.. wahhx.. hahaha.. hmm.. den we had ubin exploration.. lol.. walk for so long till we were like soooo tired.. and thirsty and zz.. bored... haha.. haix.. den we were supposed to have rafting.. BUT.. it rained.. so suai.. ahhh.. i was looking forward to rafting.. so sad.. lol.. so we gathered and cheered pr something.. i cant remember.. i now too tired.. haha.. den.. we washed up.. dat is bathe.. lol.. den,.. dinner.. and NIGHT CONFIDENCE WALK!! wahhx.. hahahaha.. it was funny.. we had to blindfold ourselves hands on ppl shoulders and travel around in the dark.. wwhoa.. so scary.. the trainers.. hahaha.. funnie.. lazy to elaborate.. haha.. i led the group.. but was kinda not a good leader.. i lack leadership skills bahh.. haha.. den.. we had supper, debrief and lights out.. lol.. so tired.. despite all the NOISE outside.. i still slept.. was too tired.. but i kept waking up halfway and falling asleep again.. haix.. too tired... zzz..
DAy 2
zz.. woke up at 5 plus close to 6.. went too brush teeth.. blah.. den did taichi.. lol.. so lame.. zz.. lazy to say further.. but it was the FUNNEST DAY!! haha.. we had our rock climbing and abseiling.. wahhx.. i didnt do rock climbing.. there was too little time.. BUT.. i did abseiling.. i was FREAKED>. hahaha.. i was scared dat i would fall.. so i kept falling on the floor and was like screaming? lol.. finally.. i took a looong deep breath... closed my eyes and leaned back into the air.. ahh.. suddenly went i was about to 'walk' on the wall.. i bent my knees and AHHHH.. i shouted.. i wasnt 'standing' on the wall.. i was facing the wall with my knees pressed hard on the wall.. i was like OMG!! i dun wan to go down le.. i wanna go back up.. HELP!!! freaked.. hhaha.. den.. finaaly with the help of the trainer encouragement.. i managed to 'stand'properly and walked down the wall.. and den.. let myself.. drop slowly to the ground.. the trainer was like.. oi.. go down faster la.. let go the rope even more.. haha..i could hear my class cheering for me! =) so nice! i let go a little more and went down.. when i reached the ground..my legs were like jelly and my voice was shaking.. hahaha.. freaked.. LOL.. we saw many other ppl rock climb and abseil.. wahhx.. some ppl are just so pro.. LOL.. hmm.. den.. we went to low ropes thingy.. lol.. we had to walk on ropes.. hands held together walk.. balancing.. wahh.. jian wei grip my hand so hard till he was like twisting it.. so pain!!oww.. lol.. we manged to reached the end.. haha.. lol.. den we got the spider web thingy.. wahhx.. i kena made to get carried thru the net.. whoa.. half way my shirt came out and someone hand was like rubbing on my skin.. i was like.. ahh.. i wanna tuck in my shirt.. but too late.. i was halfway thru the hole.. hehe.. lol.. so funny.. the guys were like carrying my legs and the girls carried my upper body..LOL.. den after dat.. we were went tthe super high wall. wahh.. everyone gotta go over the wall.. AHH.. so scary.. everyone went up and came down.. lol.. when i went up.. was so scary.. haha.. lol.. funnie.. haha... den.. wahh.. ms seh kena sabo.. HAHA.. i had to pull her up.. lol.. i was like trying to grab ppl leg to pull them up.. but i guess my hands too short le bahh.. HAHA.. but it was really FUN!!
den.. lunch.. lalala.. eat eat eat.. den discuss cammpfire stuff and den NEXT ACTIVITY.. high ropes.. AHHHHHHHH.. freaky.. funnie thing is dat i not afraid of heights.. lol. i had to walk on the jaccob's ladder thingy.. whoa.. the entire thing was shaking.. when i was on it.. lol.. freaky.. i look down.. not scared.. but its the shaking of the thing dat makes me so darn scared.. i scared dat i fall down.. they say cannot clutch the rope.. but den i cannot dun hold leh.. if i dun hold i will wobble like siao de.. haha.. i sllooowwlly.. walked across the thing.. wahh.. scary.. haha.. oh ya.. amanda got a splinter stuck in her hand.. so poor thing.. funnie leh.. she ask my to pull her up cos she sitting down i standing.. but den both of us almost fell to the ground.. lol.. i too tired le.. no strength.. lol.. den we had practice for campfire item and den learn new claps etc.. lol.. papa and mama bears are COOL!! so are the gummy bears!! =) haha.. next.. we had dinner.. like the day before.. i never mention just now.. i ate halfway and didnt eat le.. hehe.. not hungry.. no appetite.. haha.. wasted food.. =x hehe.. lol.. den had shower and den CAMPFIRE!! haha.. it was fun.. but 3E abit too quiet le.. haha.. i didnt cheer or shout.. haha.. so paiseh.. i kinda have slight cough.. so i didnt wanna shout.. hehe.. i just clapped.. and blah blah blah.. zz.. mr wee was funnie.. hahaha.. he read us mrs tan message to us and play play imitated mrs tan voice alittle.. we were like laughing like siao.. LOL.. haix.. its so sad dat gummy bears didnt win any prizes.. but den.. i guess we bonded abit more le bahh.. haha.. LOL..
de.. had supper.. debrief.. den.. lights out.. zz.. too tired.. slept throughout the nite.. waking up occasionally to position myself and sleep again.. lol.. i sleep till my leg numb.. lol.. zzz..
day 3
woke up.. so darn tired.. but i got stomache.. LOL.. went to the toilet.. haha.. LOL. bloody hell lor.. one stupid red ant bit my neck,.. so owww.. haha.. plus my sun burnt neck and face.. wahh.. so pain.. ugh.. stupid red ant.. we did taichi again.. lol.. eat breakfast and den pack and un pitch our tents.. lol.. pack le we went o gather and farewell talk by our camp chief.. den took our bags and went to assemble to board the boat back to marina there.. lol. we reach maraina dat time sat 4 like 1 hour plus den went to board the bus.. wahh.. me and wengsun had a little talk.. hehe.. i now den noe weng sun so the CUTE de!! so sweet de!! hahaha.. so funnie.. LOL.. weng sun bear bear!! lol.. zz..den.. hmm.. cant think anything le.. lol..
reached home.. i unpack everything.. went to bathe and den pack my bag went for erhu lesson.. wahhx.. so tired lor.. during the lesson i was like.. zzz.. wanna sleep le.. so bored.. den in the bus on the way home was like.. wanna sleep but cannot sleep if not i will miss my stop.. wahhx.. i went past sch rite.. suppose to alight soon.. i still sit down like dai dai liddat den awhile ltr den i remember.. oh ya hor.. i alighting le.. lol.. and now i am sitting here blogging.. lol.. so tired!!! sleepy.. oh mann.. headache.. wahhx.. zz..tonite gotta sleep early.. tml gotta go grading.. wahhhhhhh.. so tired.. i also so long nver practice pattern le.. uh oh.. die? hahahaha,, lol.. tml practice bahhx.. think i gonna rest now.. zzzz. bye..
5:02 PM ; smile?
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
OWWW.. first i cut my thumb.. now i sprain my thumb.. the same thumb.. wahhx.. so pain.. stipid me.... so pain...
quoting wat my bro said.. if u ever go girlfren boyfren.. u are gonna DIE.. mummy will kill.. dots man.. dots..
3:33 PM ; smile?
okays.. i just cried for nth.. weng sun called me and said dat xiaozhu died... i got a shock.. lol.. if xiaozhu really died.. i guess i will be so so so darn sad.. there might be even a possibility dat i will go die too.. haha.. its too precious le.. my dearest dearest BAO BEI.. I LOVE IT!!! dear XiaoZhu.. PLS.. i begging u.. dun ever die on me.. dun ever leave me.. u are too precious to me.. dun leave me kaes? i love u too much le.. so dun ever die till i allow u too.. [omg.. i too emotional le bah?] lol.. but i cry for nth.. but it shows dat i truely care for my baobei.. dat i love it alot.. but xiaozhu.. really dun ever die.. or u will be killing me..
lol.. i love xiaozhu too much le.. omg.. haha.. so sian.. today gotta finish my hmwk.. left SS and maths.. haha.. gotta finish by today.. lol..
hmm.. i wonder if i did the rite thing.. i hope i didnt choose wrongly bahh..
11:54 AM ; smile?
