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Thursday, June 28, 2007

wah. cant believe it. mr kang is leaving on 28 september and its my birthday!?!?! lol. funny. so coincidental. and shocking? lol.

okay. today. WAH! broke record. lol. not really la. but i didnt sleep in sch AT ALL! woots? haha. okay. i am being LAME!

studies. yep. getting back on track and trying to catch up with others. so far its quite smooth? i dunno. lol.

tkd. went for training. didnt really enjoy it. i was feeling unwell. haix. and i fell down on the stairs. squished my toe. haha. not really squished but now its bleeding inside of the nail OUCH!

ok. gotta go and STUDY! yup. do homework. gotta finish 2 essays and one theory book the chapter. haix. i am still slacking. cant help it. too tired from training le. okay.. seeya! (=

8:56 PM ; smile?

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

sad. i cant use com so often like before. sigh. my mum dun really allow. eh. wat to do. i wan to play audi de lor. haha. nvm. concentrate on studies bah.

monday to today. down with flu! haha. felt so sick. lol. now better liao. lol. ytd watched movie with sch. freedom writers. yup. its a nice show. but got f word de. haha. ate too much popcorns le. till sore throat. lol.

today. felt really pissed. haha. chemistry. lab. the stupid copper(ii) oxide. stain my shirt. WAH! make my shirt so the black! den later. during evaporation of the solvent. the stupid coopper sulphate splash out of the evaporating dish. and some onto my hand. wah. i screamed. pain sia. i was doing my worksheet den suddenly so pain. lol. lucky abit splash on my hand. most of them went on my sleeve and the table. heng sia. anyway. the experiment was a failure. LOL. the crystals got contaminated. duno why also. haix. lol.

CO. had a tiring time moving the instruments down all the way to first floor. the sec 4s and 3s hcl gonna have chinese oral. so forth floor out of bounds. haix!! lol.

i know now. i know everything now. i understand now. yup. everything is starting to fall in to place. piece by piece.

9:44 PM ; smile?

Saturday, June 23, 2007

wow. the last timei blogged was monday and now its saturday. lol. not much time to blog. haha. lets see. monday to thurs. had moe camp practices. lol. so tiring. i got scolded. just because i did not look at the conductor? how stupid. haha. felt really angry. but got over it in a short period of time. haha. yup.

concert time~! lol. i was scared. haha. i played wrongly quite alot of times. anyway. it was my first real concert mah. so confirm scared de. lol. den i kept playing like siao. lol. the parts i duno how to play one hor. i kept moving my bow but never touch the string. so it seems dat i am playing cos i move my fingers too. haha. i was hun-ing. hhaha.

hmm. after the concert. lol. i went to habour front to find my bro and mum. lol. they had to find me instead cos i didnt noe how to get to the place they ask me to go. i was stuck at the entrance to vivo from the mrt there. lol. dat night. lol. we went to sentosa to watch musical fountain! ahaha. with our relatives. the effects were nice. but the story suckked. big time! hahaha. lol.
-end of thurs-

friday. woke up. wahlau!!!!!!! stupid new neighbours. hacking furniture away. grr. spoil my dream. arghh. so noisy lor. biang here biang there. bang here. wahhh. noisy siah. pissed me off. haha. pissed my bro off to. lol. so nothing. woke up. haha. me and my bro watched LITTLE KC!! lol. so lame. my bro was acting like a small kiddo. lol. den after dat. went to cut hair. sobs. my hair so much shorter le. lol. my mum still say not short enough. i was like wat the hell. my hair shorter den hers leh! not short enough. like real arh. i very xin tong liao. my hair. grow for like 1yr liao den have to cut. LOL.

okays. dun blog le. i gotta go wash up den go erhu lesson.zzz tired. haha.

10:23 AM ; smile?

Monday, June 18, 2007

lol. i guess its liddat now. i was stupid. haha. now yep. frens. and lets hope dat we wont quarrell and flare up for no watsoever reason anymore. yep. just bottle up. dats al i can do. yep. wait till one day. i go beach and screammmm everything out. yup.

10:05 PM ; smile?

Sunday, June 17, 2007

okays. pics pics and more pics. all tkd ones. yup. from training camp and 3rd hwarang.

camp ones first.

ehh..i cant see the pic clearly. hmm. if not wrong. eh its. yu soon and kenneth? ya think so.

should be jia hao and kenneth.

haha.. this pic weird weird de. its jia hao 'flying'. ya.

barely missed his head....

hee.. funny pic. aiyah. why all the pics so blur de?

the next few pics including this not i take one. is mingyan took with my cam de.
haha..the pics all weird weird and funny ones.

nice positions? lol.

some photos are abt the same so i didnt upload them. kai li and liuran. lol.

liuran bully small boy. haha.

jia hao and yu soon.

kenneth and sher jie! lol.

okay. dats all for camp pics.

HWARANG!!!

eh i dunno is who. just put up all the nicer pics. mostly the same one so hwarang will have quite little pics. ya.

yay! kick the person out of the mat. lol.

TESSA!! for fun de! lol.. haha..

mrs lim is bored. haha.

zzz.. yu soon is sleeping.. lol.

smile! lol. haha.

maomao. lol. so cute!

the four medalists. lol. jonathan not inside. he went home.

very last pic le. haha. PHS tkd! 3rd Hwarang 07. =)

so many pics. lol. this post kinda messy. yup. haha. i duno why.

7:34 PM ; smile?

okays.. its impossible to take back my words.. its impossible to revert time back.. all this is impossible.. ya.. i regret.. regret flaring up for no reason at my brother.. being rude to my mum.. shouting like a crazy person.. screaming at my brother... ok.. its just me on my mood swings.. ya..

ok.. i admit this.. i am sensitive.. i dun like people asking me loads of questions.. i will get irritated and raise my voice at them.. this is me.. haha.. how stupid.. wat can a do.. its a bad habit.. its hard to change..if its easy i would have changed like long long time ago.. okay. i will try.. try my hardest to change.. and i mean it..

maybe its really my fault. but did i really treat u like invisible? actually i dunno.. as u noe.. i am mentally abit dumb dumb one.. abit siao siao de.. for me.. the reason why i left u guys alone is cos it seems dat i quite extra down there. both of u chatting happily i interrupt abit extra. ya.. so i left u guys alone.. i remain in my own world day dreaming.. so of cos.. i have to make other frens.. so there is tessa.. ya.. ok.. i might have really pangsehhed kah him. ya.. but ok la.. i thought kah him pair of with emily better.. since both their belt level higher.. and for sparring same height can pair of and bond during the camp. ya. maybe i too stupid le la.. maybe i never think really carefully abt anything. if i like stuck with kah him. tessa went with emily. ya.. we wont get to noe each other better and bond better. since we already noe each other.. why not mix around for once break off from partners and go know others better? maybe our thinkings different.. dat leads to why we are so unhappy with each other. okay. so. lets leave it this way.. i was in big wrong. and i dunno if u guys will forgive me. but i hope so. ya.. i was stupid. i was in big wrong.

ya. in camp. u noe. mood swing bad tempered. dats because. u noe. dat thingy. ya. plus i wasnt feeling well and was very grumpy. tired. and confused at the same time. i didnt even noe wat i was doing. okay. now i giving stupid reasons for my behaviour. ya. i will try to change. and try not to flare up for no watsoever reason and make u guys hate me.

but sorry. let me make something clear please? i have never ever said that i was pretty and never ever thought that i was pretty.

now. i sincerely. sincerely. apologise. if u dun find this sincere since its not face to face verbally. tell me. i apologise to u face to face. if u guys want dat. ya. i am fine with it. sorry.

this is the end of all my backstabbings and watsoever idiot actions. i hope so. i guess i was too much.. really too much.

7:08 PM ; smile?

Saturday, June 16, 2007

hwarang!! yay!!! we got a gold.. haha.. won by jia hao.. lols.. haha.. elaborate further tml bahh.. and den will post some pics up too.. yep.. kays..

i am tired.. better go slp.. gotta wake up early to practice my erhu tml..

11:44 PM ; smile?

Sunday, June 10, 2007

sianned.. i lazy to blog.. siannnnnneddeded.. lol.. later gotta go my cousin hse.. borrow thingies.. lol.. den gotta pack for tml's camp.. the hell.. i lazy lor.. tired!!!!! RARRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its not i dun want to do homework.. is i really dun have the time to do!!!!!

9:11 PM ; smile?

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

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lazy to blog.. dunno wat to say.. bored to tears.. injured like siao.. sadded.. my feet got one huge blue black.. sianned.. training is gonna kill me one day.. sighh.. just dunno wats wr9ong with me.. this isnt me at all..

11:27 AM ; smile?

Friday, June 01, 2007

waHHHH!!! i soo long never play audi le!! lols...

today... ahh.. can be early for tkd de.. but den.. 9.45am stomache.. stuck in toilet for very very loonnnggg.. lols.... in the end i was late.. ahaha.. training.. sighh.. last time i sparred with jeremy i got punched in the face.. this time... i got kicked at the ahem.. lol.. lucky i not boy boy.. hee...

after training.. RAINING WORR!!! i took bus home.. the bus driver.. OMG! he never hear the BELL.. over shot 2 stops.. dammitt... i had to walk home in the rain.. lol.. with another girl.. lol.. both of us missed our stops.. a kind soul gave us an umbrella.. lol.. but i let the girl have the umbrella.. i ran home.. since she has a longer distance to cover than me.. lol..

after i reached home.. sighh.. went to market.. buy lunch.. lol.. i kept walking wrong direction.. lol.. and.. hahahaha... 3 phs teachers were stuck at the market!!! haha. raining.. den they no umbrella.. lol...

tired.. cant really do hmwk.. my flu got worse.. ahhhh.. hope tml wun get fever.. sianned.. tata..

11:00 PM ; smile?