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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

i'm in a dilemma.. to go for bio pract on thurs or go for tkd pract instead.. argh. its a tough decision.. if i go for bio pract, i will miss tkd and i cant go for the night lesson one cos got co sectionals.. and then grading is like on saturday... but if i go for tkd.. i will have to stay back on another day to do pract.. my bro ask me to go for bio pract not tkd.. arghhhhh... i'm really really stressed out not.. watever.. tmr ask mr mark goh see how.. most likely i will end up going for bio pract.. zzz..

conincidences.. rarely occur.. but if two were to occur at one time.. kinda weird huh.. today.. while taking 853 home, at anderson jc there the stop yingjun boarded the bus.. lol.. we just smile smile and said 'so qiao'.. she looked really tired. haha.. PE. lol.. then after that.. phs the bus stop.. mr clement ng.. our sec 3/4 physics teacher boarded.. lol... he told me he was from nyjc also one.. haha.. yeah.. didnt talk much cos i was feeling damn sian.. dunno why.. yeah.. and i gotta alight at the next stop le so.. yeah.. thats all...

got home.. started work.. so far i did bio tutorial, only the mcq and structured questions... with quite a few blanks.. and then math tutorial till qns 4.. gonna do more later.. try finish if can.. yeah.. now gonna do gp worksheet and pw..

there's co tmr.. and many other stuff on thurs.. and fri got erhu lesson.. sat got grading.. sun's my only free day.. but gotta use it for studying chem and bio test.. and hopefully.. pray pray.. i dun get injured.. yeah.. i'm kinda scared.. i'm scared if anything happens.. i dunno how to face CO.. its really gonna be tough... really tough.. i cant get injured.. esp my hands.. or else.. i will be in deep trouble.. real deep trouble..

7:20 PM ; smile?

Sunday, March 29, 2009

i'm not alone.. i have my family.. i have my friends.. everyone's by my side.. i'm really really happy.. thank you guys so much.. i will be strong and someday.. i will be the one that will be there for all of u guys.. yeah.. =)

10:47 AM ; smile?

Saturday, March 28, 2009

i just found out that dad's flying off to europe tmr till 8april to for business purposes. so tmr i better make time to go out as a whole family..which means.. i'm gonna do as much hmwk as poss today.. yup... jiayou jiayou!

oh ya.. i just remembered this. lol.. its random but.. exactly six months later i'm gonna be seventeen. lols.. and i did a quiz on facebook just now abt my real age one.. and i'm really sixteen.. wow.. found out that facebook quizzes are really accurate..except some lah.. lols..

9:44 PM ; smile?

after 12 hours of sleep.. i feel so much better.. ytd was horrible.. but watever that has happened has happened.. nothing can changed it.. i will just have to forget watever that has happened and move on.. even though i know.. its gonna happen again..

oh ya.. dad's back from china.. after like one month plus.. mum didnt tell us.. was really a surprise.. lol.. when i woke up i saw this big big luggage in the living room.. then i realise.. ohh. dad's back.. no wonder last night mum ask me to go back to my room to sleep.. haha.. okays.. dad did some muscle training.. wah.. his muscles suddenly so much bigger.. lol.. dad's back and i dunno how long he is gonnay stay in sg before he goes back to china and work again.. shld be one week only bah.. hopefully it would be longer.. yeah.. then our famiy can have more time tgt.. yup..

tag replies:

[niverz]
lol.. yeah bio pract was really fun! and.. thank you.. ya.. thanks alot. =)

[zy]
thanks alot.. yeah.. i must pick myself up.. and brace myself for even more stuff that is gonna come.. and again.. thanks for being there.. thanks to ck and ws too.. thanks for being my friends.. =) yup. must have crawz outing again.. haha.. holiday so so long away.. lol..

oh ya.. cos i didnt know.. i checked up the meaning of resilient.. lol.. lets see: able to become strong, happy, or successful again after a difficult situation or event.. hmm.. am i really like that? lols.. i didnt know..

4:29 PM ; smile?

Friday, March 27, 2009

today was really tiring.. i finished GP only at around 3am.. then went to print the stuff and pack my bag.. by the time its 3.30am le.. just as i was abt to brush teeth and sleep.. die stomach ache.. cos of the coffee i drank and too much chocolate eaten... sian.. was stuck in the toilet for half an hour.. then 4am sleep.. 5.40am woke up.. brush teeth.. wash up changed ate some stuff and again went to the toilet to do big business again.. made my stomach really feel very uncomfortable.. zzz..

so with one hour and 40min of sleep.. i managed to survive this day.. and the worst was PE.. we ran 2.4km.. i failed.. i hate it.. always cant pass de. argh. hate it hate it hate it!

and everything has gone terribly wrong too.. firstly, my left eye contacts dropped out of my eyes and lost.. secondly.. i keep getting clumsier and clumsier each day.. thirdly, i cant keep up with school work.. forthly, CO is getting so much busier and the stress is adding up... fifthly, i keep forgetting my tkd pattern steps.. sixthly, i still cant spar properly. seventhly, grading is just 8 days away and i do not have confidence in myself.. and lastly.. i cant handle all this pressure at one go...

watever.. sianned.. waiting for my hair to dry so i can sleep.. zzz... there's co tmr too.. more zzz.. syf's coming.. i gotta buck up.. i gotta pull myself tgt.. but... i just cant do it..

at this rate.. i dun think i can take it anymore.. really i cant.. and the worst thing is.. i have no idea how am i gonna let u know abt it.. let nature take its own course.. and before i know it, i have already broken down..

6:18 PM ; smile?

Thursday, March 26, 2009

was trying to refrain from blogging for one week and try de.. but now.. haix.. while waiting for amanda to send me gp to do.. i shall blog.. yup..

the past few days were kinda bad.. haix.. i keep losing my temper.. argh.. must control liao. control!! yeah. haha.. today i never fa pi qi! yay! lol.. and bio pract was really fun! haha.. dunno why lor. i kept laughing and become quite high.. lols.. yup.. haix i dunno wat to blog le lor..

oh okay.. something funny today in tkd.. yup.. there's this small little boy who came and talk to me.. he ask: can u tell me ur name? i said: rebecca. he said: huh? i said: re-bec-ca. then he said: oh okay then turn around.. then turn back again and: huh? woodpecker?? LOL.. then i went: nonono. REBECCA. ahaha.. yeah woodpecker!! haha... this is not the first time some kid ask me my name and heard it as woodpecker.. lols.. so funny. haha. the boy so cute lahs.. haha.. so funny..

tkd was pretty tiring.. sir went thru all the patterns with me.. hope i wont blank out next sat during grading. jiayous! lol.. sleepy...... stuffing myself with choco to keep awake.. wah coffee like no effect de lehs.. still so tired.. haix.. watever la.. tmr i sure die de.. got 3 lectures leh! zzz..

tata...

11:06 PM ; smile?

Sunday, March 22, 2009

in the end... i didnt go 6C gathering.. and i have not done any other work since friday.. except revising through chem lectre notes.. i'm feeling kinda lazy now.. dun feel like doing any work.. haix. i better go get some research done for GP before i get scolded tmr..

my hair.. T_T

3:31 PM ; smile?

Saturday, March 21, 2009

shld i or shld i not go for 6C's class gathering? haix.. i really dunno.. luomin pangseh-ing me lors. she not going.. hmmm... i dunno... tmr morning wake up then decide! hahas..

wahh.. last night i was super tired.. i fell asleep on the sofa halfway while eating chocolates! LOL. then when i woke up like 2hrs later.. the peanut in the chocolate was still in my mouth.. lucky never swallow down ah.. if not i will be choking.. haha..

woke up at 6plus today.. surprisingly i could wake up even though i didnt set my alarm clock.. then... washed up.. changed.. went to heat up my yam pau... hahas.. then while heating the pau.. went to put on my contacts.. hmm.. now more used to putting it on le. left eye quite easy to put in.. its the right eye quite hard.. hahas.. then ate breakfast and left for sch.. went to amk interchange to wait for amd.. i was early.. amd was late. hahas.. zzz..

after CO went to canteen with zoey.. eat bread.. lol.. then sian sian then go take 22 to bedok.. went for erhu lesson.. then the contacts make my eyes damn uncomfortable.. it felt like it was gona drop out of my eyes.. couldnt take it le.. as soon as we entered wang lao shi's condo there i chiong to toilet and remove the lens.. wah seh.. my left eye turned red lor.. zzz..

lol.. luomin ask me whether i wan go watch bai yun gang anot.. its on 17april.. felt that the date was quite familiar.. went to check my calendar.. lols. i have dental on that day.. and its at night.. lol.. see if i will go anot. hahas.. if got go then gotta change appt.. but i dun wan go alone lors.. sianned.. lets just wait and see... zz.

5:47 PM ; smile?

Friday, March 20, 2009

phew.. i've sort of finished chem, math and econs. with one or two blanks of super hard questions. hahas.. taking a break before i start on biology.. haix... so tired le lor.. i've been in sch since 7.45am.. and i'm not going cyling with my cousins le.. so many many hmwk.. kinda sad luh.. cannot go cycling.. but it looks like its gonna rain liao.. sian diao.. hopefully it doesnt rain at east coast so that they can have a great time cycling there.. haha.. dunno if will join them for dinner later.. i scared they play until too late then go home cos i tmr early morning still got CO and i havent practice yet.. tmr teacher wan to hear us play one by one.. zz.. i am so dead..

there's alot of things to print.. and my printer is out of ink.. wth la.. bad timing to run out of ink and my mum. wah seh.. i don wan to say anything liao.. zzz..

okays.. time to do bio.. later still gotta put on my contacts.. was told to put it on for 6 hours today.. but i in sch whole day so dun wan to early morning put when my eyes still cannot open properly yet.. thats all.. i going to start on BIO.

1:57 PM ; smile?

Thursday, March 19, 2009

argh. my eyes damn uncomfortable.. haix... contact lens really hard to wear properly.. and kinda uncomfortable.. arghh.. i think i wasted lots of money liao.. zzz.. i gotta wear contacts for 6 months. haix..

hmwk all so hard to do. i feel like giving up le lors.. haix. gonna pia like dunno wat le..

tkd.. wat sir said really made me really scared.. omg. i'm really really really really scared.. omg la..

argh.

9:06 PM ; smile?

woke up at 8.10am today... washed up ate beakfast.. went to mrt station to collect money from qiao ni cos her friend bought from me second hand violin.. lols.. chatted awhile.. left.. went home mom said the money use to pay for contacts. yay! i got back $120 for the contacts but still payed $60 myself and also $36 for CO costume. hahas.. so i still end up paying stuff myself.. hahas..

okays then took out econs to do.. did part a quite okay.. part b did wrongly then redo.. then part c and d dunno how to do le. haix.. then went on to part 2. did part a.. stared blurly at the next few parts.. dunno how to do luhhh.. hahas.. i flip through the textbook still cannot understand.. haix.. sucks man.. okays.. then put econs aside.. started math.. attempted 5d) again.. still get the answer wrong.. i re do the question like 10 times le leh! my correction tape use alot alot le lor.. haix.. gave up.. went to question 6.. no idea how to do.. then finally.. did question 7. haix.. wasted so much time.. now eating lunch.. zz.. and i intend to finish math, chem and econs today.. think i will have to sleep late tonight.. i must finish this 3 subjects tonight... haix.. cos no time le..

tmr gotta go east coast! hahas.. with my cousins.. go there cycling.. then will be playing all the way till dinner.. have dinner tgt.. then i think go back le bah. if after dinner they still have programme i will go back myself first cos have to meet online to do GP project.. haix.. so.. tonight gotta finish up all the chem econs and math.. then tmr wake up early early start on bio and do all the readings that i have to do... print all the stuff i have to print.. then i think by the time would be 1plus le.. will go with my 2nd bro to meet my cousins at 2pm to head out for east coast..

sat have CO in the morning.. erhu lesson in the afternoon.. by the time reach home will be uhhh... around 5.30pm.. so will start revising on all the subjects bah.. esp chem and bio and econs.. yup..

sunday wake up early again.. do any work that i havent complete.. study study.. meet luomin.. go novena meet up with all the 6C`04 ppls.. then hmm. maybe got activities awhile.. then go home study again? hahas..

this is my plan for the rest of the week.. hopefully i manage to complete everything on time.. hahas..

12:39 PM ; smile?

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

heyheys.. today so tiring! woke up at 7plus.. reached sch at 8.30am so early las.. waited for luomin to come meanwhile ck and hweeying came.. then luomin came chat chat.. she play my hp... i go do the project thing.. then left for dental.. then bought food back.. then slack slack.. then went CO.. pract in LT4.. so weird.. hahas.. practiced jiang nan hao for like 5hr plus.. can die de.. hahas. then lao shu qu qin.. then zzz.. left at 8plus.. then went amk to get my contacts.. had a hard time putting them on.. hahas.. okays i lazy to type le.. byes..

9:56 PM ; smile?

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

posting!! =)

okays.. today had the project management workshop again.. brought my laptop to school.. so heavy! hahas.. its twice the size of amanda's and thrice the weight of it.. hahas.. okay so we did some project thing.. used laptop for research.. crap around.. hhahas.. then blah blah blah.. lunch.. went to macs.. on laptop.. brandon went to buy food for all of us then we started doing research.. then found the thing we need, eat! hahas.. chatted online with zy.. on webcam everyone waved.. oh everyone is: brandon, biwen, amanda and me.. yup. hahas.. so funny.. then i offed the webcam.. lol.. then crap around then left.. then bought vanguard paper then went back to MPR. yup. then continued our project then done. hhas.. at the end we had exhibition.. then end le then do survey.. then took photo with Ry, our facilitator and said bye bye to amanda and the rest.. went to wait for luomin.. while waiting onned laptop.. chatted.. then luomin came.. then no batt.. off laptop.. chatted with luomin.. hahas.. then at 5.30pm.. we left. hahas..

okays i guess thats abt all.. hahas.. tmr gotta go sch the whole whole day! hahas... lol.. will be tired. yup.. and of course i cant imagine the amt of work i have to do.. haix.. thurs gotta start pia-ing le... hahhas.. okays.. tata.. time to pract erhu!!

7:24 PM ; smile?

Monday, March 16, 2009

here to elaborate more abt ytd! hahas.. ytd too lazy to type out so so many things...

hmm.. ytd early early morning ard 1am i reached home from sentosa.. then on my laptop.. dunno for wat.. lol.. okay.. then went to wash up then sleep.. by the time it was 2am le..
so i woke up at 9.30am. hahas.. laze around then go bathe.. then blow my hair dry.. tie my hair... on laptop again.. did the quiz.. sian sian awhile.. change.. then left the hse..

hahas. i tot i would be late.. lol. in the end i wasnt. hahas.. had to wait for all of them at the mrt station cos ws missed his bus, zy was buying bubble tea.. and ck i dun even know where he was hahas.. he just suddenly appeared with zy.. lol.. then we went to eat.. lol.. very funny la.. i ordered fish porridge then one soupy soupy bowl of dunno wat was put there. i thought it was someone else noodles so i didnt dare to take.. lol. and it turned out to be 'porridge' = rice + fish soup. LOL..

after eating..we went to meet amanda.. my tongue was like swelling cos i burnt it while eating my 'porridge' LOL.. okay.. then we walked to amk hub.. walk walk around minitoons.. saw this cute white bear.. so cute!! hahas.. lol.. i'm being random.. okay then went to take neoprint.. i look so weird! hahas.. the photos turned out to be so so so so funny! haha..

then finally the main point of this post: KBOX! hahas.. hmm.. wat i want to say ah. lol.. we went in then something malu happen to me la.. haix.. my heels kena stuck on the carpet.. lol.. i was like ahhh.. hahas.. then kept laughing le. so funny.. so we went in.. at first was kinda scared to sing.. cos scared zou yin mah.. hahas.. then after a while everyone started singing! so cool la.. and funny too!! haha.. so fun!! sing sing sing.. wah.. everyone singing nice leh! haha.. so funny.. then me and amanda sang hot and cold then the three guys danced! hahas.. our orientation group trademark dance! so funny!!!!! hahahaha.. we had lots and lots of fun.. lucky with my sore throat i still can sing. haha. although its soft and much higher pitch than usual. hehes. enjoyed it lots! =)

after that.. ws left early.. then we left too.. haha.. we slowly slowly walked to amk hub cos amanda leg was pain. haha. the cons of wearing heels.. the pros.. we look taller!! haha.. i didnt wear my higher heels so not that painful.. lol.. must leave some face for the guys mah. if i wore the higher one, then i would be as tall as them.. lol.. then it would be funny. hahas.. so we reached amk hub.. at the interchange. i went to 86 there.. the rest continued walking ahead.. zy to 133, amanda to mrt, ck to mrt there the bus stop.. then 86 came.. i received sms from my mum.. called her. was told to go to ah ma hse.. so didnt board 86 and walked to mrt station there the bus stop to take 88.. on the way, passed by zy and tapped him.. talk abit.. then left.. hahas.. when i reached the bus stop 88 come le.. my lucky day sia.. bus come so fast.. haha.. then go ah ma hse.. and for dinner it was fish porridge!! it was so so so much nicer than the 'porridge' i had for lunch. i ate 2 bowls some more.. hahas.. too nice le.. ah ma cooking is the best! =) haha..

after that went home.. washed up.. fell asleep on my messy bed.. woke up at 3am.. brushed teeth.. lol.. set my alarm went back to sleep again...

okay.. thats all for ytd..

today! woke up ay 6.50am.. sms-ed amanda asking if we can meet at 7.45am instead cos i woke up late.. she reply say that 8am must report.. so i chiong chiong chiong.. stuff down 1/3 of my breakfast dwn my throat and the rest into a plastic bag and throw into my bag.. grabbed my bag, erhu went out of hse..walked to bus stop.. and wow.. it was 7.30am! but amanda wasnt there yet.. lol. she even later than me.. hahas.. she came 5min later.. then we took 853 to sch.. haha.. reached sch.. tried finding ppl.. sianned.. workshop. zzz.. wah i lazy to go into details. lol.. okay we sat in groups of four and all four members are my real pw grp members. hahas.. the grp quite okay to work with la.. brandon and amanda the most active participants.. followed by bi wen.. then me.. haha.. i kinda bad at projects.. always ppl canot hear me one. i repeat repeat repeat no one care then forget it liao i dun wanna say anything le so i sian diao.. sry.. no offence huh.. i know i talk very soft but i got sore throat mah... haix. watever..

after the workshop.. went to meet zoey.. then went for erhu lesson. then now.. after bathing and all that i waiting for my dinner to arrive.. lols.. the rest at ah ma hse.. i lazy to go over cos i wanna bathe early and not late late at 11pm plus.. haix.. so i'm getting hungry.. and its not healthy to eat dinner so late. haix.. lets wait wait wait.. its 9.30pm now.. wonder wat time will my dinner be here.. by the time its like cold and.. yea.. ugh..

kays.. thats all... bye.. and OMG this post is freaking long.. LOL.. first time i managed to type so much without giving up halfway...

8:59 PM ; smile?

Sunday, March 15, 2009

to summarise: today was fun! hahas. and all i ate today was fish porridge! hahas.. for both lunch and dinner. lols..

11:08 PM ; smile?

tagged by yj! hahas. trying to waste some time before i leave the hse...

1. Answer the questions as honestly as possible.
2. Post this as "Did That Happen To You?"
3. Tag 10 friends.
4. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
5. Have Fun!!!

1. What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?

hmm i will scream and get out of the toilet ASAP. lols..

2. What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in your own room?

sing it out loud! hahas..

3. You want to speak to your crush badly. What is your pick up line? (Yes. Both boys AND girls have pick up lines)

uhh. i have no idea..

4. What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?

does it really matter if they hate it? as long as i like it can le mah.. hahas..

5. What do you do when you trip and fall in front of many people?

turn red with embarassment.. hahas. it happened before.. hahas..

6. You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework (the one whereby you have to choose 1 out of 4 options given to you as your answer) and your class starts in 5 minutes. What do you do?

chiong and do lor. hahas..

7. You have bad breath and someone speaks to you. How do you react?

huh.. uhh.. i dont know.. hahas..

8. You just finished gym and after a shower, you drop your underpants on the wet floor. What do you do?

uhhh.. wait till it happens then i think of wat to do. hahas.

9. What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?

then.. yup. thats me with the lousy personality.. =)

10. Your friend gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?

gifts are never bad.. haha.

11.(Continued from question 10) What are you really thinking secretly inside?

hmm.. anything. its the thought that counts.

12. A hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?

uhh.. i dont care.. haha..

tags:
1. luomin
2. anyone
3. that
4. wishes
5. to
6. do
7. this
8. random
9. quiz
10. lor

hahas.. yj has basically tagged those ppl that i normally tag to do quizes.. so i shall just let anyone who wants to do do this. hahas.. but LUOMIN MUST DO!! =)

10:50 AM ; smile?

i cant go 4E`08 class gathering. i cant go 6C`04 class gathering.. reason: BROKE. hahas.. after spending $130 on my contacts lens. wah i realy die liao.. i gonna start fasting.. lols.. jkjk.. i not so stupid to starve myself..

tmr got kbox! oops i mean later.. hahas. forgot now is already sunday.. lol.. dats one of the reason why i not going 4E gathering. hahas.. feel bad.. but neverminds. me and amanda are skipping it tgt.. lol.. haha. watever la.. i dun feel like going the gathering anyway.. most of the time i down there stoning one.. not nice de.. haix.. sorry ah 4E people.. no offence.. sorry..

SENTOSA was FUN FUN FUN FUNNY!!! lols we cousins played a damn damn damn damn funny game.. okay la i never play cos i was really tired and coughing like dunno wat liddat but then watching them play was funny enough i couldnt stop laughing.. it was really LOL.. and ROFL... hahas.. my cousins rocks!! =)))

okays thats all.. gonna sleep.. i'm not visiting the doctor in the end.. mum's gonna buy pi pa gao or watever its called tmr.. hahas. zzz..

1:02 AM ; smile?

Saturday, March 14, 2009

its saturday! hahas.. went to CO at nine plus today.. practice.. then left at 1pm hahas. suppose to 1.30pm dismiss de but i left early cos got things on later.. so i went to meet wan sian.. then go to one optical shop. ordered my contacts.. cos of my shang guang i gotta order the lens one.. so wed then can collect my lens. hahas.. its not cheap luh.. confirm will get scolding from my ma de lor.. lols....

now i'm gonna stone.. funny.. i dont feel hungry even though i havent eaten anything since morning.. but still i gotta eat.. hahas.. now steaming mantou..lol.. wan to eat! hahas..

later going sentosa!! hahas. with all my dad's side relatives. they gonna swim and bbq.i gona skip the swim part cos i got no swimming costume.. hahas.. bbq cannot eat chicken!! hahas.. orders from my elder bro.. hahas. and of course i wan my throat to recover fast fast.. tmr must get better. hahhas.. its much better liao.. after drinking so much water ytd and today.. lols.. hopefully it doesnt get worse.. pray pray pray!! x) lols..

okays guess my mantou shld be ready soon.. hahas. time to eat!! =)

2:21 PM ; smile?

Friday, March 13, 2009

fri the 13th.. a bad day indeed.. haix.. didnt go visit the doctor.. didnt manage to buy my contact lens.. haix.. doctor.. my ma dun bring me go keep asking me to self medicate.. wah lau la.. contacts... shir and wansian shop shop shop so ling.. by the time got to the optician there the optician not free.. they gonna close shop soon. a total waste of time la. haix..

watever.

10:47 PM ; smile?

Thursday, March 12, 2009

haix.. my cough getting worse.. die liao.. shit lah.. haix.. strepsils seem to be doing more harm ten good to my throat.. i gonna stop eating strepsils liao.. if tmr really cannot tahan i go see doctor liao.. even if my mum dont bring me go i go see myself and pay myself le lor.. haix..

feeling really really really tired...

9:07 PM ; smile?

just got home from tkd! hahas.. i keep forgetting my steps, doing the wrong stunts.. haix.. forgetful me..

this week has really been an unlucky for for me. hahas. so many blunders made.. so many troubles caused.. i cant really get myself together.. kept spacing out.. haix.. i shall pull myself together and be who i really am. =) hahas..i sound so weird..

okays shall not blog le.. time to bathe and study! later still gotta go ah ma hse.. haix.. its gonna be a long long evening.. hahas..

5:36 PM ; smile?

lol.. i fell asleep while studying again.. haix.. good morning!! let's get some sleep now. hahhas.. 4 hours more of sleep only.. zzz... and die.. havent study math...

1:08 AM ; smile?

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

wah.. today dismissed at 8.30pm liddat.. zzz.. so tired.. i was dozing off in sectional practice lah.. haix... many many stuff to do. but i dunno how to do. i cant seem to get anything into my head lehs.. haix.. CO practices are getting longer and much much more.. haix. next week wed and thurs got practice.. wed: 1-8pm.. thurs: 6.30-8.30pm.. haix.. the rest of the days not sre have anot.. so tired luh... dunno if they gona let me go tkd grading on 4 april.. i scared they dont let.. then i waste my $107. haix....

busy sch week.. busy hols.. everything wil be so messed up....

i guess... no one understands...

9:55 PM ; smile?

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

heyheys.. lol.. i feel so sian.. lol.. hmmm.. wat to say... today's tiring.. weird.. and even weirder.. hahas.. i got angry.. then laughed then got angry again.. then.. zzz.. actually i never angry de lor.. stupid david la.. i hate it when ppl call me nicknames.. esp ribena all that.. unless i approve of the nick la.. like rbc.. ahhh/ angry..

okay.. then haha. fooled around with jap words.. kept making amanda laugh.. then i laugh damn hard also.. until i made my cough worse.. lol... haix.. but after drinking lots of water its much better liaos.. hahas..

collecting chinese stuff can really make ppl fan de lor.. haix.. tmr prepared to hear teacher nag liao.. cos of ppl who didnt hand in and zao.. haix..

so many things on my mind.. can i get them out once and for all? i'm confused.. messed up and everything.. everything seems wrong.. everything.. argh.. i'll just stone stone stone. stone stone........

8:54 PM ; smile?

omg.. i fell asleep.. man.. i was reading he econs artiticles.. guess i cant get any work done now.. its so late le.. tmr still gotta wake up early.. man oh man.. i am in deep trouble.. haix.. good nights!

12:51 AM ; smile?

Sunday, March 08, 2009

shall delete that angry post i posted today. hahas.. lalala.. i sianning.. i've finished MRP, PW PI and my GET ED REFLECTION! YAY!!! HAHA..

die.. cough getting worse.. seems like the only things i can find at home to eat when i am hungry are all chocolate stuff. lols..

8:29 PM ; smile?

yay! i finally caught up on my sleep!!! woohoo! slept at 1plus ytd and woke up at 9plus! hahas. slept 11hours!! YAY! so happy! finally one day where i can sleep nicely. so shuang la.. hahas.

time for homework homework HOMEWORK!! ahhhh.. i dun wan to do.. haix.. lets see..
1) MRP
2) PW PI
3) study econs test.. heard there is gonna be one tmr...? not sure..
4) do all tutorials/workshts/exercise/assignment/etc if have.. hahas.

okays with so much work to do in one day i must focus liao.. gonna stay offline till i finish doing MRP and PW. hahas..

9:38 AM ; smile?

Saturday, March 07, 2009

wow... its 7pm already.. time really flies when u are stressed up with mrp.. haix.. so hard to do.. i gonna die liao.. hahas.. i still havent do get ed reflection!!! YAY! i am a slacker! woohoo! lols. i kinda weird now.. ahhh watever. hahas..

i'm sianning sianing sianning.. lalalalalaala,..

OMG

7:03 PM ; smile?

lols. today kinda wasted the whole morning away.. haix.. so tired lor.. i feel so stupid lah.. i dunno how long the mrt will take if i take to paya lebar... so... i woke up at 4.30am to get ready. lol.. so 5,40am. i left the hse.. and... i reached the station at 6.25am. i was like shit!! too early.. hahas.. so damn tired la.. so i started clearing all the sms-es in my inbox and sent messages.. lol... so many msg.. after deleting all.. 6.50am le.. went down to the control station.. met hweeying and her fren.. then waited.. joanne came.. followed by others.. zzz.. yingmin was the latest! haha.. make her guilty.. hahas..

then we took 76.. after a long long thought.. i just realised.. 76 also can reach yck station. wahh.. i got 2 direct bus to east coast i also duno.. lols.. so took the bus.. so tired.. it was drizzling already.. reached east coast.. rained harder.. then CANCELLED.. uhhhhhh... zzzz.. waste my time make me wake up sosososososo early for nth... pei amd to wait for her dad.. went to parkway there.. find toilet go toilet.. come out of toilet stoned for 1hr.. met the guys.. then went bk where the rest of the class was there and i didnt even know... haix.. i felt so dumb.. ate... left bk.. went off.. walked to east coast. walked to bus stop, wait for 13.. then board 13.. then try not to fall asleep.. wahh.. super tired le la.. almost fell asleep.. slowly one by one the guys alighted.. ck... zy.... ws.... then left me alone sianning all the way back to yck station.. lucky i never fall asleep la.. though quite surprising i managed to keep awake.. haix.. so tired....

now at my ah ma hse.. my back's aching.. lol.. the laptop too heavy le.. i put in my bag and carry now backache liao. zzz.. i feel so old.. hahas.. time to do HOMEWORK!! and i'm gonna fall asleep already.. zzzzz..

2:07 PM ; smile?

Friday, March 06, 2009

YO! haha.. super super tired! lols.. dozed off in the bus on the way to erhu lesson.. so funny lors.. first, i took 136 to amk interchange.. 136 cannot fall asleep de cos i was standing. hahas.. then after that changed bus to 86. i sat all the way at the back.. then nodded off to sleep.... zzzz... waking up now and then to see where i at le.. then alighted at seletar camp there wait for 168.. lols. then 168 come le.. i sat down trying not to fall asleep.. lols.. in the end.... zzzzz.. i fell asleep.. cos the route very long. take abt half and hour to45 min de.. so zzzzz.. then i suddenly wake up and OMG my stop!! HAHA. i immediately pres the bell and hurried to the exit.. lols.. i must have been a sight.. lol.. so malu lor.. zzz. lucky i woke up in time if not.. wahh i dunno where i will end up at le. hahas..

then.. waited 25min for zoey.. then walked to lao wang's hse... then started erhu lesson!! hahas.. we took turns to fall asleep while playing the songs. lols. too tired le.. haix.. then lesson over!! lol/. time to take bus back again. surprisingly, i managed to keep myself awake all the way from bedok to yck. hahas.. so tired now.. and my neck is kinda sore from all the nodding off to sleep hahas..

oh ya.. hahas.. today dismissed at 12.45 to 12.50 liddat. lols.. went to canten and met luomin! haha.. ate lunch.. she ate alot of my impact peach mints. hehes.. lol.. than we chat chat talk talk for like 1hr plus..? lol. until ard 2.45pm.. then we slowly walk so 7-11 ten went to the bus stop.. then wait for bus and i left and she went back to et her frens. lols.. so long never chat chat with her le.. haha.. kinda funny. hahas. happy! haha. lol.. i think i very childish now.. hehes. =)

tmr got sports carnival! oh man.. i am gonna die liao.. tmr gotta wake up at 4.30am.. AHH.. sian diao. zzzzzzz.... jiayou man.. hahas. lets sleep at 9pm today!! =)))

tatas..

7:30 PM ; smile?

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

heyheys! lol.. i'm so so so tired. haha.. CO was really long.. and tiring! 3.30pm-8.10pm omg.. can die de.. non stop leh! suppose to from 3-8 de but i late. lol. went to eat lunch mah.. SO TIRED!

everyone's falling sick one by one.. haix.. my throat is kinda sore.. trying to make it worse. i dont want to run on sat!! hope it rains. i dun want to make myself too tired luh.. its like today i reached home at 9pm, tmr will be at10pm plus.. then fri got erhu lesson will reach home at 7.30pm liddat and then sat gotta have sports carnival thing.. i sure die de la.. haiyo...

damned.. how much more blur can i be?

stay positive, stay happy! =)

10:34 PM ; smile?

Monday, March 02, 2009

hey hey.. today was tiring.. had to drag myself out of bed. was so so so so tired.. ate 2 chewy juniors puffs for breakfast and had a short period of sugar rush.. lol.. then after that i was back to my sianned mood again. haix.. lol.. while waiting for amanda at the bus stop.. i actually dozed off while standing.. lols. i didnt know i could do that. haix. haha..

when we reached sch, we went to canteen. zy was there with isabelle.. sat down. stoned awhile, sianned awhile then took out some work to see see. then 7.25am walked amanda to ava room there then walked back to the canteen. did some chem, read the 2 gp articles, sianned at the fact that i have to print my gp research articles again cos it wasnt the correct font size.. i wonder if i can even change the font size. damned. i dont have adobe that thing.. gotta see if my bro's laptop have. hahas/

then lessons droned on. i sianned on.. then dunno in which lesson.. chem or bio or pw.. lols. i duno.. i dozed off.. haha.. but awhile only then i got up le. haha. aiya.. so tired la.. oh ya.. our project got the highest marks in class! lols.. haha. omg lor i had stage fright.. amanda said my voice was shaking. uhh.. i didnt know.. i just knew that my heart was pounding damn fast luh.. haiyo.. i am so dead...

i'm suppose to be bathing now. haha.. got drenched in the rain.. haix. i had an umbrella la.. but no use de.. it was flooded.. my shoes got wet, socks got mushy.. the wind was blowing so hard. my hair even got wet luh.. lol.. haha.. tmr gotta change shoes again. oversized shoes. haix. gonna get blisters... haix.. why i keep haix-ing ah. haix.. lols.

okay.. lets see..

Your horoscope for March 2, 2009
While you may not have been feeling quite your usual self over the past day or two, rebecca, today you're likely to be feeling stronger and more focused, both mentally and physically. New ideas for future projects, either your own or business-related, could be discussed and plans of action formulated. Your financial future may be on your mind, and this is just the day to look into ways to ensure it. Enjoy your day.

lol. i'm into this kind of stuff. haha.. i'm weird. hehe. my usual self huh.. wonder wats its like.. i dun really know.. enjoy my day? hmm.. its a wet day. cant really enjoy. it sort of dampens my mood.. seeing the rain falling so heavily just makes me wanna.. haix.. kinda moody today.. have been liddat for the past few days.. dunno why.. argh.. the weather is making my mood worst..

the past is something i'd wish to forget, the present is something i wish to enjoy.. the future is something i'm afraid to face.. kinda emo. haha..

6:28 PM ; smile?

Sunday, March 01, 2009

doing this to kill time.. lols.. i lazy to do hmwk now. haha.

Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head, and then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them. After doing this, tag your 21 friends to do the same.

1.Amanda
2.Zong Ying
3. Wei Siang
4. Chee Kit
5. Yingjun
6. Yee Sin
7. Qiao Ni
8. Ying Min
9. Xinpei
10. Hwee Ying
11. Kuek Jing
12. Zoey
13. Weng Sun
14. Dew
15. Hui Ting
16. Alicia
17. Jia Yi
18. Yuan Yang
19. Hao Qi
20. Lorraine
21. Kar Hui

lol.. ran out of names.. randomly put some down..

*How did you meet 7?
met her in sch. sec one classmates.

*What would you do if you had never met 15?
hmmm.. i will feel sad cos i would have a friend less.

*What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
uhh.. they are both girls.. so.. uh huh.. its impossible..

*Have you ever seen 17 cry?
uhh.. i dont think so..

*Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
hmm.. i dunno. i dont think they know each other yet...

*Do you want to be 13's friend forever?
yup.

*Do you think 11 is attractive?
HAHA.. i dunno.. hehe.. sorry ah kuek..

*What’s 5’s favorite color?
purple? blue.. ah sry yingjun!!!

*When was the last time you talked to 9?
on her birthday! 18jan. =)

*What language does 8 speak?
english and chinese..

*Who is 13 going out with?
hmmm.. i dunno.. ehh wsn any new bf in aust anot huh..

*What grade is 16 in?
JC1

*Would you ever date 17?
of course not. she's a girl..

*Where does 18 live?
i have no idea..

*What is the best thing about 4?
ehhhh.. i dunno.. haha..

*What would you like to tell 10 right now?
jiayou for studies! and thanks for her concern!

*What is the best thing about 20?
hmm... ahhh.. i dunno again..

*Have you ever kissed 2?
OMG of course not la...

*What’s the best memory you have of 5?
hahaha. when she look at my face she wanna laugh. lols.

*When’s the next time you’re going to see 4?
later. to do PW.

*How is 7 different from 6?
just different lor..

*Is 2 pretty?
lol.. he cant be pretty. HAHA

*What was your first impression of 15?
nice person.

*How did you meet 3?
JC1 classmate

*Is 15 your best friend?
not really. just a friend.

*Do you hate 12?
no.. of course not.

*Have you seen 18 in the last month?
yes.. last month was feb.. so yea..

*When was the last time you saw 16?
ytd.. in sch.

*Have you been to 5’s house?
nope.

*When’s the next time you’ll see 10?
tmr in sch!

*Are you close to 11?
was kinda close.. good friends. known each other for 7 years since p5.

*Have you been to the movies with 4?
nope.

*Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
nope.

*Would you give 19 a hug?
NO.

*When have you lied to 3?
hmm.. i think i never lie to him before.. haha.

*Is 11 good at socializing?
hmm think so..

*Do you know a secret about 8?
no.. but she knows mine. ahhh..

*Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
CO-mates. haha friends bah.

*What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9?
she's my mummy!! lol.. no la. she's a very good friend!!

*What’s the worst thing about 6?
nothing bah.

*Have you ever had a crush on 12?
no way.. she's a girl!!

*How long have you known 2?
hmm.. 3 weeks. i think so. haha.

*Have you ever been in a fight with 13?
fights? no la.. quarrell only..

*Does 11 have a bf/gf?
hmm. i dunno..

*Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?
NO of course not. if i punch her she will punch me back one. HAHA.

*Has 21 met your mother?
nope.

*How did you meet 11?
school lor.. aitong that time. p5.

*Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
YEA lots of time! hahahaha.. but not pain one lor.. haha.

*Do you live close to 7?
nope haha.. kinda far.

*What is 8’s favorite food?
ehhh. i dunno.. haha..

*What kind of car does 1 have?
she got bus 11!! lol..

*Have you traveled anywhere with 9?
yup. to taman negara. camping trip in 2007.

*If you gave 14 $100, what would he/she spend it on?
i dont know.. i think she will put it aside for the rainy days.. haha.

10:16 AM ; smile?