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Saturday, March 31, 2007

just got off the phone with daddy.. lol.. so funny.. he say i must train my voice to talk louder.. hahaha.. so weird..

had training this morning.. zzz.. tired.. go there only start kicking.. den wah.. we jumped up the stairs.. squat down and jump.. dammit la.. i wanna die liao.. my legs no strength.. zz.. den duck walk.. wahh.. my leg turn numb.. cant stand properly.. i fell onto the edge of the wall and cut my hand.. grr.. so tiring.. and.. i got bitten by a black and white mosquito.. dunno i will get dengue anot..

byebye..

2:23 PM ; smile?

Friday, March 30, 2007

thought of something: wat will the future hold for me? hmm.. i duno... i wanna noe.. but who knows wat will happen.. life is unpredictable..

kinda happy today.. PE was fun.. althoughn half way i wasnt feeling so well... we played monkey and so funny!! everyone became monkey excvept me!! hahahaha.. we had PE with 3grace anyway.. hahaha.. captaions ball.. lol.. throw far and high ball den the opposing team cant catch de.. lols..

CO practioce.. before dat... had a little talk with my yeesin jie.. lol.. wish her all the best.. ;)
practice was fun.. lazy to blog much..

ugh.. have flu for one week le.. havent recover.. nose keeps bleeding.. yucks..

this is just me.. crazy me..

6:07 PM ; smile?

Thursday, March 29, 2007

have been busy these few days.. sighh.. just feel so tired.. juggling between CCAs and school work.. been falling asleep during lessons too.. zz..

SYF coming le.. so CO peeps.. JIAYOU JIAYOU!!! dun lose heart no matter wat happens.. we will achieve our goal as long as we all work well together... practice hard!! den we can all celebrate after SYF with hopefully good results!! ^^

tkd grading also coming le.. so.. all tkd ppl also jiayou bahh.. although i think we are gonna have a lot of failures during this grading.. dun mind me.. all the best anyway! hmm.. i think i wanna join hwarang.. hahaha.. =)

sch work.. sigh.. tml got physics test.. studied for it since the hols.. but the test dragged for weeks due to the absence of some pupils which were due to CO practicing for SYF.. ^^ haha.. later go recap.. so tired.. wanna sleep early today.. try to.. but i wanna watch tv.. hahaha.. last night fell asleep while watching tv.. lol..

guess we cant be good frens again.. and i think i am the cause of it.. sorry.. but i cant help it.. sorry..

8:03 PM ; smile?

Sunday, March 25, 2007

wahh. my bro all sleeping.. so i get to use the com.. lol.. so tired.. i dunno how to do my a maths.. sigh.. kinda getting more and more stressed up.. SYF is coming.. so are my grades.. just being scared.. i better not freak out or break down.. or.. i will be in big trouble.. jiayous den..

confused.. confused so confused.. i think i am going crazy.. ugh.. sigh.. better stop thinking abt anything else except.. SYF, erhu grade, tkd grading and studies.. no9thing else.. yep.. if i can do it.. sigh...

10:05 AM ; smile?

Saturday, March 24, 2007

argh.. still cant get to my blog page.. other ppl can i cant.. hmm.. wats wrong with it.. ugh..

so tired.. i hate the stupid unknown on CO blog.. i am so gonna kill him/her..

ytd sports day.. siann.. i slept thru it.. xP hhaha.. den when i stood up my legs went numb and i couldnt even stand properly.. hahaha.. after the sports day CO.. lol.. funny.. someone starts playting a part of the song and a few ppl will start joining in.. lol.. i was playing my solo and suddenly can hear the accompaniment.. lol..

tired.. later got erhu lesson.. havent eat breakfast yet.. mum not at home.. zz.. duno wat to eat.. go play audi awhile bahh.. so long never play le..

yeah.. its time for me to let go of the feelings..

9:46 AM ; smile?

Thursday, March 22, 2007

strange.. cant seem to access my blog url.. boooo.. -.- sian.. long time no blog le..

ytd went to SCH for SYF rehearsal.. whoa.. so cold.. hahaha.. luckily i didnt get scolded much.. yay!! haha.. zhou lao shi thought i blur.. lol.. i wasnt.. hahahaha.. i just have a dai look on my face.. lols.. zzz.. fun.. yep!!..

hmm.. had tkd training today.. somehow.. not as interested as last time.. sigh sigh... one funny thing though.. we had to put our leg on our partner.. and clara was my partner.. so funny lor.. she is taller than me.. BUT.. haha.. when her leg on my shoulder, i was on horse riding stunts.. quite low summore.. however for me.. she was standing straight.. feet together. wahh.. LOL.. funny.. -.- after tkd wanted to go CO but den.. sigh.. they came down the stairs as we were just abt to go up.. hahaha.. funny funny funny// heee.. lol.. better brush up on CO as well as tkd.. SYF coming and tkd grading coming.. so gotta jia yous all the way.. everyone jiayou!! ^^ lol..

bad mood these days.. been in a daze for i few days.. i even jumped on jessica.. LOLs.. hahaha.. so paiseh.. the reason? lols.. ask jessica.. if i say i will laugh like mad.. dun wanna say.. hahaha..

5:41 PM ; smile?

Friday, March 16, 2007

lol.. my dad so romantic.. ytd was my mum and dad 20th anniversary.. my dad sent 99 roses to my mum!! hahahah.. so funny.. the flowers were heavy.. my mum werent at home so i signed for it.. -.- so heavy lor.. hhahahaha.. so funny.. next time i post the picture of the roses up.. xP

8:25 AM ; smile?

Thursday, March 15, 2007

i wanna laugh till i die and kena pissed till i die le.. -.- got pissed by someone.. agh.. haha.. not saying who.. but its a diff person this time..

i got used to mis treatment by zhou lao shi.. hahahahahaha.. noe why? because.. i play the gaohu my bow was too high den he put one music stand beside me and say if my hand hit the music stand one time $500.. lol.. i kept laughing.. hahha.. i dunno wat else to do.. only thing i can do is laugh bahh.. my throat pain so cant really talk much.. hahahaa.. -.- siann.. dun blog le.. byebyebyebyebye.. CO till 7pm.. wahh.. kinda liked it.. hahahahaha.. -.-

9:55 PM ; smile?

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

wat has gotten into me? i siao le.. ytd.. i broke one erhu string.. i went to get a new string to replace it.. but i took the wrong string.. went to take zhonghu string instead.. dammit.. i so stuuuupid.. den.. went to get the erhu string.. guess wat? i broke it AGAIN.. i was like WAT THE HELLLLLLLLL!!!! i wanna die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die... ok enuf.. so i had to replce the string again.. sigh.. the string kept losening and i took quite long to put it back.. someone was like rebecca u ok already anot? i wanna borrow ur erhu.. HELLO? u not even playing erhu one.. take my erhu for wat.. still come and WAHH SECOND STRING ALREADY LEH.. pls lah.. as if u can even tune a erhu without breaking the xuan liddat.. u dun even play the erhu so why? why get on my nerves?

today.. sigh.. went up to CO room early.. bored.. got pissed by stupid yusheng.. keep saying wat ti guang tou.. pls la.. its taekwondo.. u dumbass.. arghh... so pissed with him.. already pissed with someone for irritating me when i playing uno.. so i cannot take it le.. i stood up and screamed at him.. ARGHHH.. took me quite awhile to simmer down.. shit him.. wasted my sms-es too.. thanks to someone.. argh.. den wah kao.. my stupid solo.. dammit.. one moment i can play it well.. one moment i die down there.. ahhhhhh.. aiyahhhh.. its giving me a HUGE headache lahhhhhhhhhhhh... .at the end of CO i was like.. cant take it le.. my head really very very very very the pain.. eeyer... and ya.. zhou lao shi conductiing dat time his hand hit until the head of my gaohu.. hahahahha.. i burst out laughing.. he was in pain.. LOL.. siann.. i guess in co.. u will have.. xi, nu, ai , le.. bah. xi.. is when all our members cooperate well.. nu.. is when yusheng and some other ppl pisses me off.. ai.. is when zhou lao shi scolds me for my solo.. makes me wanna cry.. le.. is when all our members laugh at funny funny things.. tkd.. hmm.. there is none.. aiyah........

tml practice.. 4-7pm.. sigh.. gonna have to miss some of hua yang shao nan shao nu le bahh..

sigh..............just cant stop myself from being so emotional.. just cant stop myself from thinking abt the past.. just cant stop myself.. i cant control myself..

8:16 PM ; smile?

Monday, March 12, 2007

tired.. shit.. think my leg muscle overstretch.. today it was hell pain.. went thru training in pain.. my stupid thumb pain siah.. play the gaohu.. so pain.. ugh.. and its all because of saturday training.. whop was dat idiot leading us in the training? no offence ar.. =P kinda bad mod.. just now one stupid snobbish lvl 6 freak.. ugh.. dun wanna talk abt it..

this morning.. wah seh.. early morning see ghost.. oh man.. how unlucky can i be? ugh.. RAN up to CO room.. only to see the door still locked.. went to get the key.. zz.. lu lao shi tot i not CO one.. hahaha.. so funnie.. saw the ghost again.. er..................... yucks.. yucks man............................. am i crazy.. i think i am.. broad daylight how to see ghost.. ahh..

practice was fun.. yep... after many many many many many times of zhou lao shi scolding.. i improved a teeny weenie little bit.. hee... lols.. must jiayou.. SYF very near liao... training..uhh.. tiring.. painfull.. boring.. yep.. hahaha.. i think 7 hours of CO was much much better den 1 1/2 hour of tkd... hahaha.. ><

zz.. gonna sleep soon.. do hmwk first bahh..

10:00 PM ; smile?

Sunday, March 11, 2007

so bored.. lol.. haha.. tml got CO pract.. den got tkd training.. sigh.. i need dat training seriously as they do free sparring.. i said before le rite? ah watever.. so how.. i need CO to pract my solo part of feng nian ji.. so how????????? die le lah.... the SYF and grading so CLOSE the dates.. arghh.. die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die.. argh.. my fingers messed up le.. dun wanna type die anymore.. sigh..

AHH.. how i wish i dun have so many thngs to think abt.. tch... seriously.. i wanna die lah.... CO to me is my life, my responsibility and somewat a little love.. tkd.. hmm.. was my love.. and without it i couldnt live.. but now.. i kinda dun love it as much.. hmm.. i duno... ng li min rebecca.. i wanna kill u..

ahhh.. dun care le.. i go play audition.. hmpff.. audi bf.. time to say BYEBYE!!

9:52 PM ; smile?

Saturday, March 10, 2007

whee.. today is fun but tiring.. hahaha..

woke up early at 6 plus.. got a shock.. tot i overslept.. but realised it was a saturday.. LOL. i so dai.. den went back to sleep again.. zz.. woke up again.. went to pack my tkd stuff.. half asleep.. packed my CO scores and slowly ate my breakfast and den headed out for sch.. so sian.. reached sch at 9.. but not a single tkd ppl was in sight.. in the end.. they were late.. tch.. so bad.. always late de.. clara even worse.. never even come.. sleep and sleep and sleep.. never reply my sms.. grrr.. ok.. so training.. so tiring.. toture us.. pls lor.. 3 steps up the stairs.. hello.. i am short rite? my legs not dat long rite? ugh.. ahh.. watever.. dun care le.. fell down.. sprained my thumb... all this dat blah blah blah.. was the only girl.. zz..

erhu lesson.. WAHH.. my thumb super pain.. i mssed up the kong shan niao yu song.. lol.. the zhu ying yao hong was good.. teacher say one.. hahaha.. oww.. my thumb hurts again.. ><

went qiao ni hse.. eat n eat and eat.. LOL.. so full now.. hahaha.. so fun too.. ^^ whee.. hahaha.. lazy to continue blgging le.. hee..

i am sorry.. but i will have to break ur heart..

8:33 PM ; smile?

Friday, March 09, 2007

super tired.. zz.. lol.. the stupid unknown on the co blog will kiss his/her ass goodbye if i ever find out who the person is..

school.. AHHHH.. i failed my english like siao.. got an E8.. ugh.. my chinese got A1.. -.- i so luosy at english.. better read more books le.. or else will die.. for sure de..

monday to friday.. CO... 10am to at least 5pm.. hmm.. tiring bahh.. anyways... i still considering whether i shld go for tkd on monday.. they are gonna do free sparring and dat is the one thing i need to practice cos my grading will have sparring le.. uh oh.. i scared..

SYF is on the 4APRIL 2007.. my erhu grade will be on the 5APRIL 2007.. ,my tkd grading will be on the 8 APRIL.. sigh.. first week of april is gonna be TOUGH.. jiayous bahh..

now i finally noe.. wat is the biggest thing i have done to make myself regret so darn much.. it all just fall into place..

3:08 PM ; smile?

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

one word..
SORRY..
i guess i am a little bad tempered these few days.. been trying to control my temper.. guess i lost myself a little and started 'screaming' a little.. once again.. sorry..

somehow everything is like before again.. somehow i dun seem to noe anything.. somehow everything just dun fit.. i duno.. there is more work to be done again.. my holiday wun be a holiday.. ya.. and my new tuition is still on a wednesday.. sigh... and i failed english.. BADLY.. sigh..

just a little advice to the few of u guys.. dun be too good to me..

10:49 PM ; smile?

Sunday, March 04, 2007

pictures!! ^^ gonna ask loretta to send me more.. i got these few pics from her blog..

phs Chinese Orcheatra~! hee..

PHS CO Ex Co.. haha.. my head kena blocked by dao han's hand.. LOL..

another PHS CO ex co de.. eeks.. i look so weird in it lor.. ><

kays dats all..

11:32 AM ; smile?

Saturday, March 03, 2007

finally the day is over!! it was a tiring today.. lol.. hmmm.. seems like i never blog for quite some time le.. and there is a stupid imposter on my tag.. i cant find my cbox account.. so i cant delete off the tags.. shit..

okays.. today was the CO day camp.. we went to sch at 8am.. me and qiao ni were early, and den saw yu ting at the raffic light.. den.. i think we met loretta... i cant remember.. haha.. ok.. so we went to the stairs.. all were locked.. -.- so we went to the canteen and waited.. wait wait wait.. hmm.. wait for quite long den we went up.. many ppl were late and so the camp started late.. we started our first game.. whacko.. kinda a little fun.. it was funny to see the juniors turning round and round looking for ppl as they dun noe much ppl names.. so cute!! ^^ we played on and on till we went to our second game.. it was getting funner and funner.. everyone was lauhing very happily.. and soon.. all of us were playing.. TOGETHER.. ^^ as a CO..

after a maintenance talk,the camp went on with games like dog and bone, TP shuffle and some funny funny game.. everyone were laughing MADLY.. it was so funny!! haahahhahaha.. CO ppl will understand why.. i dun wanna say out.. ;) so time went on..hahaha.. we picked names for our angel and mortal game.. hahaha.. i was shocked at the name i got.. hahahaha.. not gonna tell who it is.. heee.. u will find out after the SYF.. ^^ everyone was so ethusiastic and happy..

after all dat.. we had our amazing race briefing and we set out for the race.. i was in charge of team one.. being a team ic is tough.. sigh.. i was kinda blur diao lor.. haix.. we turned out last in the end.. due to time wasted at ang mo kio cos of the stupid AUTOSOL.. arghh.. anyway.. our prize was the most useful of the other prizes.. we got tissue papers.. LOL.. hahahaha.. so cute summore..hahahaha..

after the camp.. qiao ni, dao han, ho en, yu en and yi hsiang came to my hse downstairs the swimmibng pool there to change.. i went up to put my things and get $$.. den we went to city hall to meet cai lao shi.. den she treated us to dinner!! ^^ haha.. we were so funny.. hahaha.. yi hsiang and ho en made me laugh very hard.. LOL.. funny!!!!

during the concert, we were all so sleepy.. ho en slept the most.. the music was so nice!!! ^^ hahahaha... when everyone heard the two chinese words.. zai hui.. everyone was so happy.. den we went home.. so so so so so FUNNY!!!! ho en can evenm fall asleep while STANDING.. HAHAHAHAHA.. so cute.. den he was like blur blur one.. he walk so near to a wall den realised dat he was gonna knock into it.. hahahaha.. i laughed like mad.. and he was laughing too.. LOL.. so we took the mrt all the way back home.. felt so sleepy.. zzz.. i walked home with my eyes some how closed.. LOL.. so funny.. xP i feel so happy today!!! lalalalaalalal~! wheeee.. okays dun blog le.. i forgot wat i wanna type le.. paiseh.. LOL.. i will post some pics next time bahh.. cyaz den.. BYE!

da jie: qiao ni
er ge: ho en
si di: Yi Hsiaing
wu di: DAo han
xiao di: Yu en
[LOL.. this was wat we were saying while walking to the mrt station.. we all became 'kids' of cai lao shi.. hahaha.. i am san jie/mei.. LOL..]

freaky freaky freaky thoughts.. OMG.. rebecca u better stop thinking so much!!!

11:20 PM ; smile?