force a smile?

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

not going to the beach anymore.. meeting joanne, gloria and adeline at bugis to shop then dinner..

well, so many things happened since i've returned from china. too many. many things changed. all too sudden. by the time i realised it, everything is kind of messed up. i dont know what i am doing. and neither do i want to know. all i know is that i'm a fool.

i dont know how to describe this feeling.

12:25 PM ; smile?

feel like going to the beach. maybe i shall head over to east coast alone tmr.

12:21 AM ; smile?

Monday, June 20, 2011

在每个人的笑容里藏着心里的痛，心里的不开心。有些人不小心伤害了别人，别人却得忍着心里的难受，勉强地笑着。这，很辛苦。为什么这世界上会有人将把自己地娱乐建立在别人的痛苦上？大家都是人，为什么有些人就那么的可恶？那么的自私？

12:32 AM ; smile?

Sunday, June 19, 2011

i'd wish u should have just carried on with ur plans of aborting me instead of giving birth to me.

i'm tired of living this life. i'm tired of living. i shouldnt be here.

1:46 AM ; smile?

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

i'm home! i missed home, missed my bed, my tigger, everything and everyone! finally, home.just a short post here. right shoulder's hurting quite abit and i have no idea why.. so i cant type for long. haha.

to just summarise china trip:
1) (not so) early sleep (ard 12-1am)
2) very early wake up (7-730am)
3) bad air condition
4) weird weather pattern (it was supposed to be summer, but it felt like winter, only difference is we were wearing lesser clothes)
5) food was scary (too salty, too oily, too much)
6) beijing trip was tiring
7) great wall of china was too great to handle
8) forbidden city should continue to be forbidden or else everyone will walk till their legs rot
9) pandas are cute! (not real ones though stuffed ones. )
10) rare get together for 11-12 days with family. just the 5 of us. hadnt had such things since dad started going overseas to work.. which was like... i dunno. many many years ago. i cant even remember.

so, i'm finally back to singapore with a uncomfortable feeling stomach, bad shoulder, bad skin condition (first time i'm concerned abt my face. argh) and of course a little weight gain. RAWR. time to burn off those overly salty, overly oily food that accumulated over the past 11-12days. thank god its only 1kg. hahaha. well, theres much more to burn besides that one kg. hehe.

alrighty then, time for a shower and bed!

2:25 AM ; smile?

Thursday, June 02, 2011

再过十个钟头，我就会做在飞机上，等着起飞前往上海机场然后做车去苏州。我想我会想念这里。12天。有点舍不得走。没又朋友，没有 YouTube, facebook, blog. 天啊。应该还有msn 和 iPod 遊戲吧。因为，大多数的天爸爸在做工我们待在家里一定会闷死。哈哈。好吧，再见了。

我会想念在新加坡里的朋友的！六月14号再见！

2:32 AM ; smile?

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

the month of May has ended! and i'm flying off to china tmr! woohoo~

well, ytd ah. damn sian. firstly, couldnt fall asleep at night. so had 3hrs of sleep only then went to work. full shift somemore! tired ttm. then supposedly the CEO coming down. so the whole morning was spent cleaning up at mof. glass display, gelato, menu holder, chairs, etc etc. clean dao damn tired. in the end lehhh. the VIP never come. all the cleaning was for nothing. haha okay la. maybe for me to do a nice cleaning for my 'last day' before i go holiday. rawr! hahaha. and and, ytd i dunno how many irrashaimase i shouted sia. shout until throat pain. customers flooded in during lunch and dinner. wahseehhh. effective ah my shouting? lol! ytd sales high sia.

i'm tired, but i cant fall asleep. what nonsense is this? 3 hr slp plus full shift, thought can sleep earlier. in the end? lie in bed for 3 hrs cannot slp, move to sofa lie for another 2 hrs cannot slp. finally doze off, mum starts shouting at my bro to wake up. what is this?! -.- lol. screwed up man..

okay. so now, whats done is done, whats lost been lost, whats failed has failed. so take things of my mind, go enjoy this holiday and then come back and face the music. woohoo~ siao liao.

11:50 AM ; smile?