yesterday i totally freaked out.. before i went for my erhu lessons... i went downstairs my hse to buy a bottle of drink at sweets.. while walking past the swimming pool, there was this old man at the chair and suddenly he farted damn hell loud... i guess he didnt noe i was behind him... omg.. i quickly walked frightened like hell... hehe...
i cant believe wat i did.. i cant believe... i cried... cried in a bus.. wat was wrong with me... i tried hard to stop myself... but i just couldnt... luckily only i few drops came down and i hid my face so no one knew... luckily... i was blasting my mp3 in my ear and i didnt realise it was audible to other passengers around me.. oops...
Theres tkd grading today!! over le.. my god so scary.. my heart was like pounding when i did my pattern... omg... haix.. i m glad its over... i cant wait for the next tkd training....
i must stop... stop everything.. end everything... and begin my life again with nth but a less vulgar and less attitude problem me... i must.. but i cant... i want to .. but i cant.. i cant... i am sorry for those who i have offended... i am willing to change.. but i find it hard to.. its my attitude dat i ahve to change... i am sorry.... sorry...
