okays.. its impossible to take back my words.. its impossible to revert time back.. all this is impossible.. ya.. i regret.. regret flaring up for no reason at my brother.. being rude to my mum.. shouting like a crazy person.. screaming at my brother... ok.. its just me on my mood swings.. ya..
ok.. i admit this.. i am sensitive.. i dun like people asking me loads of questions.. i will get irritated and raise my voice at them.. this is me.. haha.. how stupid.. wat can a do.. its a bad habit.. its hard to change..if its easy i would have changed like long long time ago.. okay. i will try.. try my hardest to change.. and i mean it..
maybe its really my fault. but did i really treat u like invisible? actually i dunno.. as u noe.. i am mentally abit dumb dumb one.. abit siao siao de.. for me.. the reason why i left u guys alone is cos it seems dat i quite extra down there. both of u chatting happily i interrupt abit extra. ya.. so i left u guys alone.. i remain in my own world day dreaming.. so of cos.. i have to make other frens.. so there is tessa.. ya.. ok.. i might have really pangsehhed kah him. ya.. but ok la.. i thought kah him pair of with emily better.. since both their belt level higher.. and for sparring same height can pair of and bond during the camp. ya. maybe i too stupid le la.. maybe i never think really carefully abt anything. if i like stuck with kah him. tessa went with emily. ya.. we wont get to noe each other better and bond better. since we already noe each other.. why not mix around for once break off from partners and go know others better? maybe our thinkings different.. dat leads to why we are so unhappy with each other. okay. so. lets leave it this way.. i was in big wrong. and i dunno if u guys will forgive me. but i hope so. ya.. i was stupid. i was in big wrong.
ya. in camp. u noe. mood swing bad tempered. dats because. u noe. dat thingy. ya. plus i wasnt feeling well and was very grumpy. tired. and confused at the same time. i didnt even noe wat i was doing. okay. now i giving stupid reasons for my behaviour. ya. i will try to change. and try not to flare up for no watsoever reason and make u guys hate me.
but sorry. let me make something clear please? i have never ever said that i was pretty and never ever thought that i was pretty.
now. i sincerely. sincerely. apologise. if u dun find this sincere since its not face to face verbally. tell me. i apologise to u face to face. if u guys want dat. ya. i am fine with it. sorry.
this is the end of all my backstabbings and watsoever idiot actions. i hope so. i guess i was too much.. really too much.
