what am i doing? my life after A's has been pretty messed up. sleeping late, waking up late, and now, sleeping late, waking up early. worst still, i'm holding on to 3 jobs. on top of that i would have to plan my driving lessons soon if i pass my basic theory test.. and and, i need time to enjoy myself. oh and not to mention, new year clothes! oh man. i have not even bought much. only a top. aww man. sucks ttm.
and lastly, will god please grant me a miracle? i admit i may seem greedy, but, after so long. after so so long. of times i liked somemore so so so long, when did i ever become really happy for a long time? all were short lived. and they were toturous. my heart wont be able to take it much longer. i want to give up, but.. but.. i really cant seem to do it. why? why do i fall so deep?
