hi there. the month of july is ending already, school's starting next week. temporarily stopped working at mof to rest and prepare for school.
well, this month of july, many things happened. too many. i dont even know where to start. many things changed. many. through all these things, i've thought over lots and lots and lots. and no matter how i think, there is only one conclusion. there is no future. its impossible. there's no way. so what to do? to end it? or not to end it? question to me would be, why didnt i think more carefully abt it before starting it? so now that it has started, i want to end it? given a choice, i dont want to end. but the fact is i dont. i deserve to be hated, i deserve to have even my best friend getting mad at me. for i'm always doing these kind of things that makes people mad at me.
why must rebecca be borned into this world, why didnt she just get aborted?
