1. unable to fall asleep at night unless its really late
2. unable to wake up for sch (gotta force myself to get out of bed)
3. no appetite to eat proper meals
4. no appetite to eat chocolates at times
5. sudden blank staring
6. dozing off in lectures
7. unable to concentrate
8. gets injured and doesnt feel the pain until very long later
9. keeps getting into 'accidents' (eg, tripping on stairs, breaking lab apparatus and getting cut, burn joss stick, lighted end flew off and burn my hair. thank got burnt a little)
10. bad headaches
11. puffy eyes
12. very bad chest pains
13. crying suddenly
14. and when things finally seemed better, it starts all over again.
if i can, i will stop all of that. i want to go back to a normal life. i want to go through a happy uni life. but, the mental stress, the pain, the frustrations, they wont go. they just wont. if, if i could do the easy way out, i will do it. i will. leave this world once and fall all. but i cant. so, i'll just endure, till one day, i die a natural death.
