well, well, well. lessons have officially started. so so so so 'nice'.
Thurs: 12pm cm1111 lecture. intro, intro blah blah, blah blah. end. dozing off...... 4pm gek1421 lecture. intro, intro, history to present, blah blah blah.. dozed off. 6pm cm1191 lecture. totally didnt understand what lecturer was saying. complete shut off of my brain plus cant sleep cos the lab staff ppl were sitting behind. omg. 8pm. all ended. mehhh.
Fri: 9am. tutoria; 'snatching'. breakfast. 10am ma1421 lecture. sleepy, but forced myself awake cos i'm week in calculus.. must pay attention. plus, lecturer not bad. and i had coffee. so keeping awake was okay. 12pm went to uhc to do some allergy test. wahaha. dustmite allergy. itchy. eww. okay. then lunch, see amanda eat lunch, go get her lab coat and specs. parted, went to library to find my chem friends. then, cm1131 lecture at 4pm. dozed off. kena poked awake. struggled to keep awake. 7min break, slept through. lol. then lecture continued, blur like blur. yeah. thats all for the 2 days.
very very very very very =( still not used to studying. the bad thing is that the school is so so so big. the breaks are so so so so long. the lessons end so so so so late. my timetable is so so so so so not nice. only wed is nice cos i only have lessons from 9-12pm. the rest of the days? i end at 6pm! so i'll reach home at 7-8pm everyday except wed. wonder how my cca would be. havent cfmed which cca i'm joining yet too. mega huge SIGH. D= school fooood. not very nice. nicer ones are so so so expensive. RAWR. gonna start bringing my own bread to school everyday. diet also. HAHA. fail sia my diet plans. complete fail. i dont care alr la. can lose jiu lose. cant lose jiu maintain lo. cannot become fatter.
things are really not good.. i dont even know how to go about saying. jealousy, selfishness, jumpy. u say things that dont tally. u say things that make me feel like u are blaming me but then u say u are not blaming me. so those words that come out of ur mouth, what do they mean? if u didnt intend to blame anything on me, those words wouldnt come out of ur mouth so naturally.. yes, i've changed alot. different from how i was. thats because i am unable to act like how i used to be after all that had happened. i'm like u too. i have feelings. u are not the only one feeling horrible. why am i typing all these? u wont read this and neither do u understand this. whatever.
