Tuesday, September 06, 2011
life isn't a drama. dramas are fake. there's no such thing as a real happy ending. so, dont try to mimic dramas. its just stupid.
sinus and allergy has been going on and off on and off for dont know how many times this year alr. alot more for aug and now, the beginning of sept. sunday night started with swollen eyes, runny nose, monday swollen eyes, runny nose, sneezy, plus throat irritation. and today, runny nose, sneezy, fatigue.
the bad thing was last night i went to bed at 11plus.. but i couldnt sleep cos my nose was so blocked that i cant breathe properly. the last time i checked my phone was 2.09am. thats damn early. then i was supposed to wake up at 6am, but even though i set 3 alarms to ring at 6, 615 and 630, i woke up only at 650. washed up, changed, grab a bread, went off to sch. reached sch at 840, went to css room, went to set up sci day stuff, went for lab. lab. i dropped a conical flask from head level. lucky no one got hurt. shocked. big thank you to the guy who helped me take the broom and my TA who helped me sweep up the mess. and he said that i gotta treat him lunch for service charge. haha. then ending my expt, i placed my paper in my fumehood while i did something. this weird TA from dont know where. came and say 'where is this supposed to be?' at my paper. .... dont know whats wrong with him. suddenly come like i offended him like that. whatever. then finish my expt, cleaned up, return apparatus, let TA sign my datasheet, got weird readings. sian. might have to redo. and then when out of lab, mehh outside the lab while waiting for charmaine and raymond to come out. super tired. when they came out, hui en came, went to canteen, grab a bread and drink, went to LT, eat and lecture. =.= halfway during lecture, head felt heavy, strong attraction to table, and i blanked out. i could still hear things though. like lecturer was talking and talking, carlene waas explaining things to jia jia and suddenly i heard hui en 'scream' also. hahaha. her cup fell off the table. but i just couldnt get up. lecture end, went out, waited for them to eat finish then went home.
a day ended just like that. i'm so tired. physically, mentally, whatever-ly. i think it wont be long before i master the art of sleeping while standing in the mrt. hahaha. hopefully, i can sleep tnight. going to bed early again. if i start sneezing, coughing, rubbing my eyes again, thats it, tmr i will still be mehh throughout. i feel zombified.
and, i'm tired of who people think i am. i'm tired of telling them i am not who they think i am, but they will still insist that i am who they think i am. hey, i am who i am. i am what i am. i am myself. not who you think i am. and u think u know me better than i know myself? stop trying to fit me into this other person who i dont know. i am ng li min rebecca. i'm not anyone else.
9:33 PM ; smile?
