My fault that the printer ran out of ink and i cant print my notes so i borrowed the ipad. My fault that the app i used dun let me export the file to my computer unless i pay a few bucks for it. My fault that i had training and a whole load of shit tests that i dont have time to individually transfer what i had in the ipad to my com. My fault that im so tired so i was too lazy to explain everything so i replied with only two words: see how. My fault that these two words caused u to tulan because i used once and u cannot sync the ipad for a few days. My fault. Everything is my fault. I caused u to cannot add ur favourite anime into the ipad to watch. My fault because i needed the ipad for my studies so that u cannot use it for ur entertainment. My fault for getting angry because u act as though the ipad belong fully to u. Yes my fault. Now my fault that because of this incident u are quarreling with our eldest bro.
You know what? If that isnt enough, heres more. My fault for asking u to drive me to buy things and then u can shun bian pick ur gf but it made u all quarrel instead. My fault that i had to go to a friend's house when the trains and buses no longer servicing so i got angry when u took one hour to drive to hougang to send ur gf home, mot even counting the time u take to come back.
Want more? My fault that i was born out as an accident causing mum to take care of me and dad to take eldest bro to the octopus ride and left u alone sad at a pasar malam when we were younger. My fault that im the youngest daughter so i get one room to myself and u and bro got to share. My fault.
If so, im bettet off not living. U know, how the fuck i wish i dont exist on this world at all. Why live when i am always the extra one? Why live when im always the wrong one? Why live when im not allowed to theow some temper when im seriously pissed off? Why? Tell me. Why. Why let me be in this world? Why do i have to face all of this. Why. Given a choice, i choose to not have existed at all.
Suppressing my emotions is hard enough. So many things. So so many things are weighing me down.
